Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions

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PostRe: Depression
by still » Sat Jan 14, 2017 8:26 pm

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still wrote:Thank you Jawa. I agree that I was massively out of order posting what I posted in this thread. I'm not going to delete it - that would just be stupid, I said what I said. But the guy was being a huge prick in the Switch thread for no justifiable reason. Why deliberately set out to spoil other people's fun? What is clever about that? I've said it before, I'll say it again, I do not suffer fools gladly, I know I shouldn't rise and bite but I do. Something to work on I know.... The sad thing is, I try and help people on here going through what I have been through. Fade strikes me as someone who could do with support but if you just set out to wind people up then you're not going to win many friends. I remember once Fade correcting me, wisely, over some aspect of Buddhism. What has become of that wiser person? The funny thing is I'm now being accused of being some sort of rabid Nintendo fan but I'm not! For what it is worth I think the Switch looks like a really excellent system but, there is absolutely no reason to buy it until Mario comes out - I'll be playing Zelda on the WiiU thank you. I agree with much of the negativity swirling around yesterday's reveal. But, trying to be a smartarse about it and just having a go because it's easy and cheap is not the way, not for me anyway. So, in summary I ballsed up, yet again, too much passion, not enough restraint.....

Btw, Chalky's comment did make me laugh, at myself I hasten to add.

I want to try and understand you.

What exactly did I say that made you so angry?

Because from my point of view I was disappointed with the console reveal and the decisions they made and as such was tearing the console a new one.
I wasn't trying to spoil anyone's fun, that was just my opinion on the console. If someone defends it I'm going to tell them why I think they are wrong. If you don't like my opinion just set my posts to ignore.


Hello Fade. Thank you for your post. I am sorry, deeply, for how I treated you last night. It was completely, utterly, out of order. I will come back to you, perhaps by PM, if you don't mind, as to why I just found what you were posting to be offensive. To be honest it wasn't me that was bothered but I was more bothered that other people were getting upset, if that makes sense? I kind of weighed in to support them. I've had a drink or two right now so I think it would be best if I came back to you tomorrow..... Pretty sure we can resolve this amicably thanks to your post above. Take care.

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PostRe: Depression
by Green Gecko » Tue Jan 17, 2017 2:04 pm

I think it's nice that despite all the difficulties that these problems present we still have a common interest to get passionate about, or even angry/upset about, and sometimes, a distraction from the more serious matters at hand. I do thank video games for that. I've has meltdowns on here too. Let's just treat each other well.

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PostRe: Depression
by Fade » Tue Feb 07, 2017 8:59 pm

I find it continually frustrating how people without depression don't understand it, even when you try and explain it to them multiple times.

"Oh well you go to work so why do you have a problem doing laundry?"

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PostRe: Depression
by jawafour » Tue Feb 07, 2017 9:14 pm

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PostRe: Depression
by Green Gecko » Wed Feb 08, 2017 12:34 am

Had to leave a co working space because a bastard there started yelling at me about feck all at the pub and it got a bit violent. Had an anxiety attack and was literally crying. Realised I couldn't go and feel anxious and vulnerable around people like that with no code of conduct in place. It's like if grcade had no rules against trolling or bullying except it was your place of work and somewhere you go to get away from the house, which in itself is hard enough if you suffer from anxiety.

And the irony is the space is supposed to be there for people to avoid isolation working from home, yet this prat lectured me about needing to "stay off forums and experience the real world more". What a giant banana split. That's why I strawberry floating went there, so thanks for shitting all over that you insensitive, belligerent prick. For 8 months, since last May, that is exactly what I was trying to do and spend some £600 in membership fees for the privilege.

I even told this guy in earnest that I had anxiety and to please refrain from berating me (which he was doing in public).

This was all building up for a few months as I'm the kind of person that just says, "ok sorry I upset you :simper:" but was at the end of my tether. It's not appropriate in a workplace/community hub to berate others repeatedly.

I complained to the facilitator people twice and ended up just cancelling the membership and saving myself money. Now there's rumblings of writing some actual rules for the place, hmm what a bright idea.

No surprising yet still disappointing that workplaces where nobody works for anyone else and it's just meant to be a nice space still contain dicks who want to gooseberry fool on everyone else's parade. Honestly I've rarely met other people with such shocking lack of respect, especially in a professional space, albeit one that is still supposed to be fun.

I guess some people confuse "having fun" with "being a jerk".

So I'll be pretty isolated for a while as I observe, a "voluntarily suspension of membership", which the other guy was encouraged to take (it would seem as at least some sort of consequence after I complained). But not currently planning on going back. Why subject myself to dickheads when I'm trying to move mountains and rearrange my life around my needs and get better from all these brain problems.. Answer: I shouldn't. strawberry float them.

The thing that sucks is all the hundred odd people I met I won't have access to anymore. I get really tired of negotiating around bad people sometimes, and I don't think anyone really understands how hard I try to get on with everyone (and usually do). Maybe the truth is actually I try way too hard, and need to think more often, "ok sir, I can see that you are banana split, talk to the hand" and just dissect those people from my mind and move on.

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PostRe: Depression
by Rocsteady » Wed Feb 08, 2017 9:44 am

Did you not add any of the nicer folk on Facebook and could just invite them out for a drink?

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PostRe: Depression
by Satan's Claws » Wed Feb 08, 2017 9:45 am

Giant banana split indeed

I've really no clue as to what kind of place you're talking about though.

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PostRe: Depression
by Chestnut Snowleaves » Wed Feb 08, 2017 10:59 am

Fade wrote:I find it continually frustrating how people without depression don't understand it, even when you try and explain it to them multiple times.

"Oh well you go to work so why do you have a problem doing laundry?"


Oh man, so much this. "How do you have social anxiety when you work in a shop and deal with people all day?" :fp:

Having a gooseberry fool day. Was in a car accident which totally wasn't my fault, but in my shook up state I forgot to get any details so it looks like I'll be paying for it then. Took all my energy and willpower to manage to phone the insurance company and then my missus is like 'that'll end up costing you more, why did you do that?'. Everything I do is always wrong.

jawafour wrote:You definitely have the biggest one, mhtl - it's strawberry-floatin' massive!
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PostRe: Depression
by Fade » Wed Feb 08, 2017 12:59 pm

Car insurance is such a strawberry floating rip off it's insane.

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PostRe: Depression
by Green Gecko » Wed Feb 08, 2017 3:25 pm

Rocsteady wrote:Did you not add any of the nicer folk on Facebook and could just invite them out for a drink?

Sadly not, and I regret it. I've taken down some names, so can probably find them, but that's also something I don't really do with work types. It's a strange situation. I don't even know half of their names.

Half the point of doing this is just so you maintain normal social interactions that are healthy when you "leave" the normal world of work, eg just having someone to say hello and goodbye to everyday and people to go and have drinks with that aren't your BFF/partner. It was part of my coping strategy. Just once a week. Although half the time I was too nervous to even go in / leave the house.

Co working spaces are hotdesking/wifi/social spaces where freelancers and self employed can work and hire desks, without having to hire an actual office which is insanely expensive. This means you actually go outside.

There is a pretty good chance however that I'll bump into some of them at other free events. For example there's another group that goes out twice a month just to talk about what people are doing and swap strategies for dealing with shitty customers. :lol:

Also think I'm going to pretty much stop drinking all alcohol at these events. Its quite scary how easily anxiety can turn to anger when nobody gives a gooseberry fool / understands what is happening to you. Yelling at you doesn't help. Isn't that just flat out abusive and the twat deserved it?

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PostRe: Depression
by Lotus » Wed Feb 08, 2017 6:52 pm

more heat than light wrote:Having a gooseberry fool day. Was in a car accident which totally wasn't my fault, but in my shook up state I forgot to get any details so it looks like I'll be paying for it then. Took all my energy and willpower to manage to phone the insurance company and then my missus is like 'that'll end up costing you more, why did you do that?'. Everything I do is always wrong.

Hope you're okay MHTL. Were there any witnesses/anywhere with CCTV that you could go and get a number plate from? Did the other driver(s) not try and exchange details?

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PostRe: Depression
by Chestnut Snowleaves » Wed Feb 08, 2017 7:23 pm

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more heat than light wrote:Having a gooseberry fool day. Was in a car accident which totally wasn't my fault, but in my shook up state I forgot to get any details so it looks like I'll be paying for it then. Took all my energy and willpower to manage to phone the insurance company and then my missus is like 'that'll end up costing you more, why did you do that?'. Everything I do is always wrong.

Hope you're okay MHTL. Were there any witnesses/anywhere with CCTV that you could go and get a number plate from? Did the other driver(s) not try and exchange details?


Thanks for the reply man. I'm fine, the accident was pretty minor really, I was slowing to turn at a junction and this guy just pulled out in front of me. I'm just annoyed at myself for not thinking clearly and getting details properly, I didn't even get the other car registration number. All I remember thinking was that I didn't want to seem racist as the guy driving was Indian, which is just ridiculous really. :lol:

It's the aftermath that's really getting me down though, I just find organising things really difficult. Calling the insurance guys and just genuinely not having a clue what I'm talking about, mumbling and rambling like a prize idiot. And then obviously going over that phone call in great detail in my head remembering the little things that i should have said instead. And that process taking up time that would be better spent cleaning or tidying or something like that. Urgh.

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PostRe: Depression
by Green Gecko » Wed Feb 08, 2017 8:21 pm

Building up the will to speak to some knob like insurance/bank/council is really something when you feel low. It's taken me literal days to do it before, I've been summoned to court before for not contacting the council, and end up literally sweating out my clothes. strawberry floating horrible, and yes, hardly anyone on the other end of the line can possibly understand.

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PostRe: Depression
by No:1 Final Fantasy Fan » Wed Feb 15, 2017 12:52 am

Living up north!
Why does it feel depressing every time I'm leaving London after a short break there? Getting on the train at Euston just sucks...I always feel like staying in the great smoke. But after a week or two I adjust back to the quiet life.

My New Years resolution for 2017 is to move down to London. Just need to get a job there first!

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PostRe: Depression
by gamerforever » Wed Feb 15, 2017 5:42 am

Anyone on citalopram? Just makes my legs sweat, but i do feel more positive generally these days.

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PostRe: Depression
by Satan's Claws » Wed Feb 15, 2017 7:07 pm

Hope it works for you, I'm on fluoxitine. Makes me feel better, if you consider suppressing feelings 'better'. I do

I do feel though that the wall between contentment and depression is paper strawberry floating thin though. I don't think it would take much to send me spiralling. Hell, the music on minecraft gets me really down. It's got to the stage where I turn it down when the kids are playing it and put on something on my stereo

At least I've finally managed to get out the Carrie Fisher depression that I was in. Hit me surprisingly hard did that. Right up there with Kurt Cobain and Norrie McCathie for me.

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PostRe: Depression
by paperbag » Wed Feb 15, 2017 8:58 pm

[quote="gamerforever"]Anyone on citalopram? Just makes my legs sweat, but i do feel more positive generally these days.[/quote]

Yep, been on it for 6 weeks and feel so much better - though a number of positive factors play a part in that.

Find it's much easier to "fuzz out" things I was obsessing over. Have dodged the sweats too, thankfully.

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PostRe: Depression
by Fade » Thu Feb 16, 2017 1:30 am

Green Gecko wrote:Building up the will to speak to some knob like insurance/bank/council is really something when you feel low. It's taken me literal days to do it before, I've been summoned to court before for not contacting the council, and end up literally sweating out my clothes. strawberry floating horrible, and yes, hardly anyone on the other end of the line can possibly understand.

When I was applying to Uni 8 odd years ago and ended up not going because I was depressed, I couldn't muster up the will to call them up and tell them i didn't want the place.

They ended up calling me up a few weeks after term started asking why I hadn't shown up for classes so I just lied and said I had e-mailed them but it must have got lost somehow.

That was dumb of me :fp: :dread:

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PostRe: Depression
by Zaichik » Thu Feb 16, 2017 1:08 pm

I have been on a succession of antidepressants since just after my Mum died in 2013 and went on a particularly bad downward ride for no particular reason just before Christmas and had to have my dosage increased. However, I recently had some blood tests for something else, as a result of which they discovered I had a vitamin B12 deficiency, one of the symptoms of which is..... depression.

I've now completed a course of booster injections and feel so much better mentally, I just can't tell you. Whereas the pills were just keeping me in a state of level-headed indifference, I now feel positive and have actually had some days where I would describe myself as happy.

I'm now determined to get off the pills and get on with my life - so much precious time in my son's life wasted.

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PostRe: Depression
by Green Gecko » Thu Feb 16, 2017 3:25 pm

That's both sad and great to hear. I had a blood test 6 years ago and the results never showed up. I don't think I've ever had my nutrition looked at but I think this is really important.

Re B vitamins I try to eat a lot of 100% pure peanut butter and marmite, which contain a high level of Niacin and vitamin B complex. I also recommend bananas due to high amount of 6 different B vitamins.

Another deficit is Vitamin D3 which you'll get if you spend more time outdoors. Depressives are vulnerable to this because tend to be shut in a lot of the time.

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