Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions

PostRe: Depression by **Green Gecko** » Wed Nov 02, 2016 1:20 pm

Congratulations, you are ill! Now you can get better.

PostRe: Depression by **Banjo** » Wed Nov 02, 2016 1:28 pm

Good to hear Trelliz.

I'm just coming off the Venlafaxine. It was a rough month on it (admittedly there were some outside triggers that didn't really help that situation) but I definitely felt more negative effects than positive from it. I'm registered at a new GP and have got some numbers to call, had some really low moments lately that pretty much put me in the 'emergency' category, so I can't keep telling myself that I can ride it out, just make positive changes etc. There are some very deep, underlying problems that need medical attention and it has now reached a point where to ignore that will only result in severe damage.

Depression! Yay!

PostRe: Depression by **Green Gecko** » Wed Nov 02, 2016 1:32 pm

Does anyone else have a time trying to get to therapy then? I would get to 2nd and 3rd stage referrals identifying serious issues and then be all sardonic and defensive about it all without realising, saying I just try my best and so on, the NHS would just be like, lol you're doing OK you're not mentally ill enough, sorry.

PostRe: Depression by **Rocsteady** » Wed Nov 02, 2016 3:18 pm

Been feeling like gooseberry fool the last week or so, I'm just strawberry floating sick of everything. Got the easiest of lives right now but find myself constantly bored and unmotivated to do anything to change it. My parents have been over the last couple of days which was nice but in general I just can't be arsed making an effort with anything anymore. Beyond stupid ass gooseberry fool like watching Westworld I can think of literally nothing that interests me.

7256930752 · PostRe: Depression by **7256930752** » Thu Nov 03, 2016 10:32 am

Rocsteady wrote:Been feeling like gooseberry fool the last week or so, I'm just strawberry floating sick of everything. Got the easiest of lives right now but find myself constantly bored and unmotivated to do anything to change it. My parents have been over the last couple of days which was nice but in general I just can't be arsed making an effort with anything anymore. Beyond stupid ass gooseberry fool like watching Westworld I can think of literally nothing that interests me.

I hate that feeling and find its things that sitings be relaxing that I can't be arsed with. I will do a workout, go for a run, walk the dog, etc just so that I have accomplished something and not just sat on my phone looking at the same things over and over.

PostRe: Depression by **Green Gecko** » Thu Nov 03, 2016 12:55 pm

I also have a constant dread of not doing and accomplishing enough, so I can't relax. I have to try really hard to congratulate myself for completing a thing, even if it's just 1 thing.

PostRe: Depression by **Rocsteady** » Thu Nov 03, 2016 4:37 pm

Felt even worse this morning, was getting strong suicidal thoughts and - having set my alarm early to have a productive day - spent most of the morning in my dark bedroom staring at the wall.

Dragged myself to the gym for a couple of hours and got paid while blasting out Ennio Moriconi which all helped alleviate it a little but been a strawberry floating shitty time. Was feeling pretty anxious in the office too which I barely ever get. So happy to be back on my couch. Felt like my mind was floating away while trying to talk to a girl who was sorting my phone earlier.

PostRe: Depression by **still** » Sat Nov 12, 2016 10:23 am

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/disability-37628866

PostRe: Depression by **jawafour** » Sat Nov 12, 2016 11:33 am

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PostRe: Depression by **Green Gecko** » Sun Nov 13, 2016 12:38 am

jawafour wrote:
still wrote:http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/disability-37628866

That was an interesting read, still. I find that artistic stuff helps me, too. One of the reasons I enjoy designing logos and stuff for GR is that, in that situation, I am totally relaxed and yet concentrated... I forget about everything else and get totally focused on the creative challenge.

Highs and low are weird, too. One day I can be almost ablaze with energy - extremely positive and doing tons of stuff - but then things can quickly change and I become slow, laboured and overcome with darker feelings.

I have never sought the advice of a doctor. I think I should have on occasion, but the experiences of someone close to me meant that it has never been a route I've wanted to take. So I self-manage the issue; I can usually tell when the boom and bust periods are arriving.

Totally understand what you mean about the highs and lows man.

With regards to not having sought treatment in the past, you probably give yourself less credit than you deserve.

PostRe: Depression by **Green Gecko** » Sun Nov 13, 2016 1:22 am

Just learnt a uni friend of mine commited suicide suddenly in Vietnam living with his girlfriend over there.

Only knew because a few of us got together in London, and I'm not on Facebook anymore.

I think that's a the 3rd friend I've lost so far, the first was a car crash, 2nd was diabeties, but suicide was not something I expected especially for someone who always seemed so jolly. Goes to show you can never know when someone is really in the deepest depths of depression.

PostRe: Depression by **jawafour** » Sun Nov 13, 2016 11:40 am

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PostRe: Depression by **still** » Sun Nov 13, 2016 4:19 pm

jawafour wrote:
still wrote:http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/disability-37628866

That was an interesting read, still. I find that artistic stuff helps me, too. One of the reasons I enjoy designing logos and stuff for GR is that, in that situation, I am totally relaxed and yet concentrated... I forget about everything else and get totally focused on the creative challenge.

Highs and low are weird, too. One day I can be almost ablaze with energy - extremely positive and doing tons of stuff - but then things can quickly change and I become slow, laboured and overcome with darker feelings.

I have never sought the advice of a doctor. I think I should have on occasion, but the experiences of someone close to me meant that it has never been a route I've wanted to take. So I self-manage the issue; I can usually tell when the boom and bust periods are arriving.

Been meaning to get back to you on this Jawa as I though what you posted was very interesting. Your sentence about being totally relaxed and yet concentrated is pretty much a description of a meditative state! The kind of thing now being taught as mindfulness. Doing anything where you have to concentrate and yet get lost in something - a simple jigsaw puzzle for example - tends to get you in that state. Years ago - I don't have anywhere to do it now unfortunately - I used to do stained glass which I really enjoyed. I'd just get lost in it, I'd lose all track of time, it was extremely relaxing.

I'm not so sure I would be so concerned about seeing a doctor. I've had some truly excellent help over the years, with anxiety and depression, to finally get to where I am i.e. pretty much happy with/in myself. I still take a small maintenance dose of citalopram every day - always will - if I try to do without, and I have done many times, I very slowly slide back into depression. The only other situation nowadays which can lead to depression is severe tiredness. Perhaps something to think about? Take care.

PostRe: Depression by **still** » Sun Nov 13, 2016 4:21 pm

Green Gecko wrote:Just learnt a uni friend of mine commited suicide suddenly in Vietnam living with his girlfriend over there.

Only knew because a few of us got together in London, and I'm not on Facebook anymore.

I think that's a the 3rd friend I've lost so far, the first was a car crash, 2nd was diabeties, but suicide was not something I expected especially for someone who always seemed so jolly. Goes to show you can never know when someone is really in the deepest depths of depression.

That's pretty shitty. Try not to let it affect you too much.

PostRe: Depression by **jawafour** » Mon Nov 14, 2016 10:08 am

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PostRe: Depression by **Green Gecko** » Mon Nov 14, 2016 11:54 am

That's interesting about the low dose of citalopram. I want to eventually reduce my dose (I started on 10mg per day) but I guess I shouldn't be determined to stop entirely because all that really is is feeling ashamed about treating an illness, which helps nothing.

Throughout my life I've done what could be considered meditative. I do practice mindfulness now but need to get back into guitar playing, I've hardly forgotten how to play but it has slid very noticeably in the last few years. Remembering to listen to music helps with that, and it is meant to be common with depression to find yourself doing less of things you enjoy or not being able to enjoy them. I've also painted miniatures and loads of things that get the lost like that, and it's a big part of being fairly determined to go the art route at uni, eschew my web dev alley at work and focus on creative art and design for my business. I'm sure the Prince's Trust will continue to support me (my "launch" is end of this month), I must remember how it is all part of the big plan to turn things around and not "forget" I am doing what I want and am good at!

PostRe: Depression by **Trelliz** » Mon Nov 14, 2016 12:00 pm

So after my phone discussion thing I got the paperwork through which basically said "we talked about this stuff, we're really busy and will let you know when we can actually talk to you, in the meantime try not to kill yourself!" which is...something I suppose. Between now and then I'm likely to be spending the Christmas period unemployed, broke and miserable as the harsh reality of a post-PhD world comes crashing in like the jet engine in Donnie Darko.

PostRe: Depression by **Green Gecko** » Mon Nov 14, 2016 12:08 pm

Been there man.

Try to focus on friends, family and hobbies if you can. You hopefully have food, shelter and vidyagamez to play while figuring things out. It's okay to take some time. :wub:

PostRe: Depression by **Johnny Ryall** » Fri Nov 18, 2016 11:19 pm

I finally got permanent crowns on my two front teeth today. I still have some more work to get done next year (think I've hit the limit of what nhs will pay for). But I can't express how much this was negatively affecting my self esteem. People thinking I'm miserable when I just don't want to smile, covering my mouth with my hand when something hilarious happens, etc. All cos I was feared of dentists...

I wish I could go back in time and pimp slap younger me but today has helped a lot.

PostRe: Depression by **False** » Fri Nov 18, 2016 11:26 pm

Congrats bro

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