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Building up the will to speak to some knob like insurance/bank/council is really something when you feel low. It's taken me literal days to do it before, I've been summoned to court before for not contacting the council, and end up literally sweating out my clothes. strawberry floating horrible, and yes, hardly anyone on the other end of the line can possibly understand.

Living up north!
Why does it feel depressing every time I'm leaving London after a short break there? Getting on the train at Euston just sucks...I always feel like staying in the great smoke. But after a week or two I adjust back to the quiet life.

My New Years resolution for 2017 is to move down to London. Just need to get a job there first!




Liverpool doesn't look that bad though but it just feels too small for me

Anyone on citalopram? Just makes my legs sweat, but i do feel more positive generally these days.

Hope it works for you, I'm on fluoxitine. Makes me feel better, if you consider suppressing feelings 'better'. I do

I do feel though that the wall between contentment and depression is paper strawberry floating thin though. I don't think it would take much to send me spiralling. Hell, the music on minecraft gets me really down. It's got to the stage where I turn it down when the kids are playing it and put on something on my stereo

At least I've finally managed to get out the Carrie Fisher depression that I was in. Hit me surprisingly hard did that. Right up there with Kurt Cobain and Norrie McCathie for me.

[quote="gamerforever"]Anyone on citalopram? Just makes my legs sweat, but i do feel more positive generally these days.[/quote]

Yep, been on it for 6 weeks and feel so much better - though a number of positive factors play a part in that.

Find it's much easier to "fuzz out" things I was obsessing over. Have dodged the sweats too, thankfully.

Green Gecko wrote:Building up the will to speak to some knob like insurance/bank/council is really something when you feel low. It's taken me literal days to do it before, I've been summoned to court before for not contacting the council, and end up literally sweating out my clothes. strawberry floating horrible, and yes, hardly anyone on the other end of the line can possibly understand.

When I was applying to Uni 8 odd years ago and ended up not going because I was depressed, I couldn't muster up the will to call them up and tell them i didn't want the place.

They ended up calling me up a few weeks after term started asking why I hadn't shown up for classes so I just lied and said I had e-mailed them but it must have got lost somehow.

That was dumb of me

I have been on a succession of antidepressants since just after my Mum died in 2013 and went on a particularly bad downward ride for no particular reason just before Christmas and had to have my dosage increased. However, I recently had some blood tests for something else, as a result of which they discovered I had a vitamin B12 deficiency, one of the symptoms of which is..... depression.

I've now completed a course of booster injections and feel so much better mentally, I just can't tell you. Whereas the pills were just keeping me in a state of level-headed indifference, I now feel positive and have actually had some days where I would describe myself as happy.

I'm now determined to get off the pills and get on with my life - so much precious time in my son's life wasted.

That's both sad and great to hear. I had a blood test 6 years ago and the results never showed up. I don't think I've ever had my nutrition looked at but I think this is really important.

Re B vitamins I try to eat a lot of 100% pure peanut butter and marmite, which contain a high level of Niacin and vitamin B complex. I also recommend bananas due to high amount of 6 different B vitamins.

Another deficit is Vitamin D3 which you'll get if you spend more time outdoors. Depressives are vulnerable to this because tend to be shut in a lot of the time.

Thanks for the kind words.

The B12 deficiency wasn't down to poor diet but something stopping my body breaking it down from my food. I have to have some more tests and it could be that I will have to have the injections every few months for life. But even that would be so much better than sinking back into the hopeless depression I've been feeling for nigh on three and a half years and which has come close to destroying my marriage.

I'll need to check this out..

At the moment I'm trying to declutter and take better care of simple things and others and my pets. I don't really care about work at the moment, I just want to see things with some clarity for just a few days.

I've been working on my nutrition lately. I take a standard multivitamin + iron tablet each day as well as a vitamin B complex, and I'm upping the level of fruit, grains and seeds I eat. I'm a porridge man in the morning and I fill that full of various seeds and berries. Super filling too, lasts hours.

I'm currently on 30mg of Mirtazapine too. I don't particularly feel the drowsiness effect any more, but I am getting more sleep than I used to which is nice.

Smoothies are awesome. I do banana and peanut butter and yoghurt (which is good for the digestion) pretty much every day now, have one of those magic bullet things (it's not a vibrator) so you blend it straight into the mug, which is great when faffing is the last thing you generally want when you're anxious.

First thing I thought when my partner got it for Christmas from her parents.

Green Gecko wrote:Smoothies are awesome. I do banana and peanut butter and yoghurt (which is good for the digestion) pretty much every day now, have one of those magic bullet things (it's not a vibrator) so you blend it straight into the mug, which is great when faffing is the last thing you generally want when you're anxious.

Yeah that sounds like the gooseberry fool.

Nutrition's crazy important when it comes to mental health, I feel awful when I've been neglecting healthy eating.

I wish my brother would understand that. I mean he knows - he just doesn't do anything about it.

Rather he drinks 21 units worth of alcohol - which is handily the recommended maximum. (problem is he does that every week)

If he's depressed it can be difficult to make those adjustments though. When I was really down I used to sail through 21 units most nights, even though I knew it would mentally strawberry float me up the following day.

To the people that suffer with anxiety; do you find when something is coming up that makes you anxious it acts as am amplifier to other things in your life?

I'm coming to the end of a holiday and have had very poor sleep the past 3 nights which I put down to getting closer to the flight (bit of a nervous flyer). Yesterday I almost lost my mind as I read a news article that reminded me of something that could have ended terribly...about 10 bloody years ago. Also, I almost clattered a young girl while snowboarding yesterday and I can't stop thinking about what the consequences would have been. Anxiety generally makes me overly cautious and I'm kicking myself for even getting in that position.

Just wondered if this kind of thing is normal? I don't talk to anyone other than my doctor and sometimes my girlfriend about this stuff. A bit gutted really as I thought I'd gotten a handle on this. I can force myself to get through situations that I'm anxious about but the lack of sleep really runs me down.

Oh absolutely. I find that a lot of my life feels like a precarious house of cards, where one thing going wrong can cause the whole thing to come tumbling down. Problems in work? It will bleed into personal life, relationships, hobbies and more.

One of the things to try and work in is your coping mechanisms, having strong enough foundations so that when you get shook it doesn't reverberate through other areas of your life. For some people this takes the form of hobbies, others dig meditation etc. It's a rough ride unfortunately, and the answer isn't actually as straightforward as what I just wrote. Talking about it is a good start though.

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