jawafour wrote:That sounds tough, Gecko - I hope your small "recovery" steps soon build towards a better state.
A slightly off-the-wall thought, but do you feel that your battle with depression could actually be a positive factor in driving your creativity? I don't know about others but, personally, I feel that the up-and-down periods play a part in building my ideas. When things are rough I can barely think beyond a blank page but, on the "way back", I can be exuberantly creative.
Yes jawa I believe it does have a role and I have lots of ideas. My mother believes the same thing and sort of raised me that way. You have so much time to stew over ideas when depressed that when you have your energy back you can set about making them, the only struggle then is focus and doing the right ones that need more doing or are realistic and won't set you back months. If I never struggled with depression I probably wouldn't have taken those big steps to alter my future and see to it that I would be less likely to be depressed more in the future by for example doing office jobs that at times made me physically ill (and I do suffer the physical elements pretty badly like extreme fatigue, aches, nausea and headaches, and no appetite).
Poser wrote:It's been two months and I've not heard anything from the talking therapy people. I'm not annoyed about it - I know they're stretched. It's crap that there isn't better provision out there, especially as I believe there will be a lot of people in a worse situation than me. (Although maybe the form I filled in didn't demonstrate enough urgency).
I have spoken to my boss about it, and he recommended (and has offered to pay for) a clinical hypnotherapist, who specialises in this kind of thing. I'm off to see her in two weeks' time. I'm certainly intrigued. Have no idea what to expect but will let you all know how it goes.
It does take ages man, eventually they should pop a letter through or call you. And yeah I hazard to think what happens to people who are worse off, the suicide rate is hardly good. I think they just rely on hospitals and people being sectioned too far gone and treatment isn't anywhere near preventative enough.
A lot of people tend to temper their descriptions of their condition so are not noticed.. I've been dismissed because I presented OK but I certainly wasn't. Sometimes you have to pick the worst moments and describe those or slightly over dramatise to highlight those.. It's shitty feeling you have to do that, but support workers in the past have essentially done that for me to make sure I got the help they knew I need because they knew I would temper what I say in the forms. It's hard because you are used to presenting yourself as hey everything's ok I'm normal etc. But that isn't the truth.