1. New Order - Blue Monday 88As a baby and very young child this video absolutely hypnotised me. I always wanted to watch the video with the dog on the ball. I had no idea what was going on, but I loved the song too. When it came on the radio I'd be silent till it ended, and every time this came on MTV I'd stop what I was doing and be hypnotised by it.
2. Blur - Song 2I loved Blur and Oasis, but this song always resonated with me more than anything either band brought out. I was bullied a lot as a kid, I was seen as a bit of an oddball for liking different stuff to everyone else. This song made me feel like I didn't really care whatsoever about anything anyone thought about me, and made me carry on being me. I had no idea what the lyrics were, I just loved the beat to it, how quick the song went.
3. Daft Punk - One More TimeI didn't get on well with others too much at secondary school. I was at an all girls school and I hated it. I always got on much better with boys, and I didn't get on too well with girls, but the school I wanted to go to was too far away from where I lived to go to so I ended up at this one. I felt very alienated, the school had a very high muslim count, and I hadn't a clue at the time about muslim culture, their beliefs, and if you'd have asked me at the time what Eid was, I'd have asked you what you were on about. Also, talking about boys, makeup and the usual stuff teenage girls talked about really didn't interest me in the slightest. This song made me feel better about the situation I was in. It made me happy and much less depressed. When I got my first CD player, I had the "Discovery" album in there all the time, and this was always put on repeat.
4. Coldplay - YellowWhen I was 15 my Great Grandad died of a heart attack. Out of all of my family he was the one I always looked up to growing up as he was always so funny and upbeat, always full of good advice and such a massive sweetheart. He was such a great man. The day he died I was in pieces. This song played 3 times that day at different points and it made me think that he was watching over me. When I hear it it always reminds me of him, and how far I've come since then. I was 15 when I was diagnosed with my condition, I've always tried to keep upbeat about it, like he would have done.
5. The Hoosiers - Goodbye Mr AI had this song as my ringtone when Ella was born. It's always made me feel pretty upbeat and it's one of the songs I just can't help sing along to. Motherhood didn't come naturally to me like I thought it was going to. I was 19 when she was born and I still felt like I was a child myself. Listening to this always made me smile inside when I felt like I wasn't a good enough mum.
6. Goldfish - We come togetherI was at a very funny point in my life when my friend introduced me to this band, I was 21, feeling quite lonely and left out by my friends at the time due to some problems going on within the group. I was being left out a lot due to everyone thinking I couldnt come join in just because I was a mother to Ella. I could understand when it came to drinking, but I was being left out of trips during the day when alcohol wasn't involved whatsoever. My friend put the link up to this song on Facebook and I've loved Goldfish ever since. The video makes me feel nostalgic, and though I'd be on a desert island, it'd make me laugh thinking about it
7. OK GO - Get over itI hadn't listened to these in ages since they'd released "Here it goes Again" and when I first met my partner I was a depressed mess going through a lot of gooseberry fool at home. I felt stuck, not good enough for my partner, really just low in general. This song got me over myself and is still a go to when I'm making myself low for no reason.
8. Goldfish - Take Back TomorrowI love this. It's the one song that reminds me what I can do even when I'm a mess. When I feel like I've had a bad, depressive day, it makes me feel like tomorrow will be a better day for me, even if my anxiety is still there, even if my problems are too, I can face them head on and get through it all.
It's taken me a very long time to decide what songs to put up here. I have a long list of songs that mean a lot to me, but these mean the most. It took me even longer to post this, finding the right video to Blue Monday took a good while, I didn't realise I needed the 88 there!
Book: Harry Potter and the prisoner of Askaban - it was my favourite of all the HP books. Either that or one of Frankie Boyles books, he has me in stitches.
Luxury item: Paints. I'm an artist (well I'd like to think so anyway
), it'd be fun to paint the island the colours I wanted to have around me if I ever got bored of the scenery.