HDYFRN How Do You Feel Right Now?

OrangeRakoon wrote:There should be a law that says if the weather is nice enough, everyone gets the day off work (apart from people who work in pubs)

Long as you tip us extra, otherwise no deal

Speaking of bar work, texted my boss three days ago telling him I'd be back home for summer next week and he still hasn't replied and now I'm getting paranoid that he's found new staff and I'll need to go on a short term job-hunt as well as the long-term one RIP

This morning the vision in my right eye is a little blurry (noticeably when I switch eyes reading text on my laptop). I've also been sniffling from presumably hay fever, but having not really had blurred vision before - is this normal? Anyone know? (My allergies have only been developing in the last ~5 years so I'm still on the great road of discovery)

It's part of it, especially if it goes away later in the day, well in my experience of hayfever anyway.

Yeah I seem to be improving

Well that's a fun new symptom to look forward to!

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So we were playing frisbee in the local park, I threw it and the wind (totally wasn't my fault) carried it over the fence and into what we eventually found out was the local primary school's sports field. We circled the perimeter but couldn't find a way in - barbed wire on top of the fences surrounding it - but there was a metal gate tucked away at the end of a street so I casually climbed over and trespassed.

Got 'em

Pretty chill day hanging out in an outrageously warm game store playing cards. Afterwards, on reddit, I posted a write up about the tournament and (what might be much more interesting for this audience) what my competitive season looked like. https://www.reddit.com/r/pkmntcg/commen ... on_review/

Also, I booked my flights and accommodation for Nashville, so that's happening. All in all feels pretty great right now!

Yay go wrathy! We'll all be cheering you on from here!

I had a wonderful birthday today, thanks for asking guys

Hey choclate-milk did you have a wonderful birthday yesterday?

Happy belated birthday milky!

Tsunade wrote:Happy belated birthday milky!

Reported for racism

OrangeRakoon wrote:
Tsunade wrote:Happy belated birthday milky!

Reported for racism

Reported for animalism

I feel old. Ella is going to her secondary school open day today.

Tsunade wrote:I feel old. Ella is going to her secondary school open day today.

30 is pretty old pal. RIP.

Karl wrote:
Tsunade wrote:I feel old. Ella is going to her secondary school open day today.

30 is pretty old pal. RIP.

Just 5 years and you'll be old like me :lol:

Tsunade wrote:
Karl wrote:
Tsunade wrote:I feel old. Ella is going to her secondary school open day today.

30 is pretty old pal. RIP.

Just 5 years and you'll be old like me

But in 5 years Karl will be 17?

(this one was too well set up I couldn't not)

OrangeRakoon wrote:
Tsunade wrote:
Karl wrote:
Tsunade wrote:I feel old. Ella is going to her secondary school open day today.

30 is pretty old pal. RIP.

Just 5 years and you'll be old like me

But in 5 years Karl will be 17?

(this one was too well set up I couldn't not)

Young and sweet

Got an invitation to interview for an activity leader position at a teaching English residential thing over summer yay yay (already got work lined up at the pub but this thing will be some good youth working experience for my CV if I get it)
Also finally sorted out a flat for the coming year in Newcastle since it turned out my friend had a room going spare in his which means I won't have to live at home/with randomers like I thought I might. Now I just need to line up a job for September/late August and I'll be all set hooray

I know I don't post here much so I probably shouldn't be dumping a load of personal stuff, but I just need a place to vent right now.

Life is utterly, utterly shitty at the moment. I finally came out to my mum about two weeks ago. She didn't take it well. I'm not going to get thrown out or anything, but she couldn't have made it much clearer I do not have support in this.

She said basically every hurtful and ignorant thing you can imagine and cooked up some crazy scenario where I'd been converted by gays on the Internet, like we engage in some sort of extremist radicalisation process.

We talked through some of it for about 2 days that basically amounted to her saying something hurtful, me trying to explain how much it hurt, her not listening, me crying and then her crying.

Now she has said she accepts it, but I'm not allowed to talk about it at all. She says she is not ashamed and I shouldn't be either, but I shouldn't tell people, I shouldn't go to or show any Pride, I shouldn't mix with gay people and I 'shouldn't let this define me'.

I don't socialise much (at all...) and she's pushing me about my anxiety and being unemployed now, and fair enough, I'm 26 and I've never had a job, that's all kinds of pathetic and she should put some pressure on. I know why she's doing it now though, she's hoping I'll get a job, mix with people, meet some nice young guy and the whole gay thing will disappear if she doesn't indulge it. And I just have to go with it, because it's true I need to work on my anxiety and I need to get a job and I need to socialise, there's just this underlying poison in the whole effort now.

And I know she loves me and I know she doesn't mean to hurt me and she really doesn't understand at all how much or why it hurts, but christ it does. She prayed on my worst fears and doubts about being wrong, about not being accepted, about never finding a girlfriend, never having a family, and I'm just stuck with all these horrible thoughts given voice and I have literally no one but Internet people to turn to for support. I have never felt more hurt and alone and hopeless and ashamed and I can't express any of this to her because I have to put on the everything-is-fine act or face another argument I really can't handle.

I really wish I hadn't said anything.I wish I'd just had a heart to heart about my anxiety and depression and stayed in the damn closet.

Minoru wrote:I know I don't post here much so I probably shouldn't be dumping a load of personal stuff, but I just need a place to vent right now.

Life is utterly, utterly shitty at the moment. I finally came out to my mum about two weeks ago. She didn't take it well. I'm not going to get thrown out or anything, but she couldn't have made it much clearer I do not have support in this.

She said basically every hurtful and ignorant thing you can imagine and cooked up some crazy scenario where I'd been converted by gays on the Internet, like we engage in some sort of extremist radicalisation process.

We talked through some of it for about 2 days that basically amounted to her saying something hurtful, me trying to explain how much it hurt, her not listening, me crying and then her crying.

Now she has said she accepts it, but I'm not allowed to talk about it at all. She says she is not ashamed and I shouldn't be either, but I shouldn't tell people, I shouldn't go to or show any Pride, I shouldn't mix with gay people and I 'shouldn't let this define me'.

I don't socialise much (at all...) and she's pushing me about my anxiety and being unemployed now, and fair enough, I'm 26 and I've never had a job, that's all kinds of pathetic and she should put some pressure on. I know why she's doing it now though, she's hoping I'll get a job, mix with people, meet some nice young guy and the whole gay thing will disappear if she doesn't indulge it. And I just have to go with it, because it's true I need to work on my anxiety and I need to get a job and I need to socialise, there's just this underlying poison in the whole effort now.

And I know she loves me and I know she doesn't mean to hurt me and she really doesn't understand at all how much or why it hurts, but christ it does. She prayed on my worst fears and doubts about being wrong, about not being accepted, about never finding a girlfriend, never having a family, and I'm just stuck with all these horrible thoughts given voice and I have literally no one but Internet people to turn to for support. I have never felt more hurt and alone and hopeless and ashamed and I can't express any of this to her because I have to put on the everything-is-fine act or face another argument I really can't handle.

I really wish I hadn't said anything.I wish I'd just had a heart to heart about my anxiety and depression and stayed in the damn closet.

She may just need a bit of time. If she's made up a load of crazy scenarios she's probably had crazy scenarios in her head about having grandchildren, you getting married to a guy etc.

Thing is, you can still get married, still have a family, just not with a guy. You'll find the right girl for you one day, you're a lovely person (and from what I saw of that hama bead LoZ window you posted on SONM, very talented!), give it time and you'll get there.

Anxiety and depression suck balls. I have anxiety and it is a pain, but you can work through it, maybe speak to your doctor about ways you can deal with it, and if you don't want medication tell them that, there's other ways to deal and manage it. Same goes with depression.

You always have us for support. We may just be "the internet people" but we're here if you need us.

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