Outrunner wrote:I hate it. Without fail, no matter what I try, depression hits hard over Christmas. If I could be in a country that didn't mark the occasion I would. Christmas is a blip in my otherwise favourite season of winter.
I hate that the run up to Christmas gets earlier and earlier.
I hate the enforced time off from work. I'd much rather be at work. The worst part? I have to pay the strawberry floating time back for a holiday I don't want to take.
I hate the Christmas police that call me Grinch or Scrooge because I dare say I'm not looking forward to Christmas (only when asked, it's not like I'm going round say how much I hate the season or anything). It's really classy and shows empathy. Also if you're going to compare me to those literary characters it's probably best to not pick characters who's entire story arcs consist of them coming to love Christmas. Oh, and unlike Scrooge or the Grinch at the beginning of the stories, I genuinely hope every one who wants to celebrate has a great time.
I hate the pressure to go on the Christmas meal. "Go on, it'll be fun", "A few drinks and you'll be laughing", "Why aren't you going, you're so miserable". I hate big groups out, they're never fun for me, I can't drink because of my medication, and even if I could, alcohol is a depressant for me. Also it's your incessant nagging and being the fun police that's bringing me down.
When I do make an effort (mainly to get the CPD off my back) and buy novelty sci-fi Xmas tshirts, listen to alternative, but still upbeat Christmassy songs I get called out on that. "I can't believe you're wearing that, you're such a scrooge normally" "That's not a proper Christmas song, why are you trying to ruin everyones Christmas"
My best Christmases have been those where I've done as little as possible to mark the occasion. I'll do my own thing (Planes Trains and Automobiles, Gremlins and Scrooged are my go to films). I have a handful of alternative christmas songs if the mood takes me. But mostly Christmas can do one.
Ever thought of volunteering? It’s not the same as going to work and doing your own job getting paid for it but could help give you function and purpose for the day. I’ve worked quite a few Christmas sessions in healthcare and overall it’s been good to help those who want to celebrate. Perhaps there’s a driver service to get the old dears to the community centre Christmas dinner or something you could help out for without being balls deep in festive activities.