This thread speaks to me.. I've
always had a problem with my attention span and I just can't snap out of it.
I remember it being a problem ever since I was around... maybe 11 or 12 years old.
I can be talking to someone, and then as soon as it's their turn to reply, my mind has switched off and I'm instantly thinking of something else.
My missus hates it, she knows when I've clocked off mid-conversation now, and thankfully doesn't get angry anymore because I think she's started to believe me when I say that I can't really help it.
Or, another example is that I can be at work (like right now lol) and someone will phone and say "I need this, urgently, it's
got to be here for tomorrow morning, can you phone back really soon to let me know if it's possible" and I'll reply "Yep, no problem, I'm on it now..." and as soon as that phone goes back on the receiver I'm on Reddit, or here, or making content and memes for my facebook page.
And that very urgent job,
that I know is urgent, gets pushed to the back of the pile, to be done at the very last minute. Often to go wrong because I left it too long to find an alternative solution.
It affects hobbies as well, learning the guitar was REALLY difficult as a kid because instead of learning the song, or reading the music, my mind would strawberry float off somewhere else, so learning songs etc took forever.
Never learned anything decent like the different scales, methods and sheet music etc, wrote them off as being "Too difficult", but really it was that I couldn't concentrate.
Same thing with wanting to learn 3D modelling, tried following tutorials etc for Milkshape back in the day and because I couldn't get my brain to concentrate on learning it for more than 45-60 minutes at a time, I just wrote it off completely. And I
really wanted to do 3D modelling when I was a teenager. It's what I wanted to do with my older life/career. But I couldn't get my brain into gear.
I hate it. Really genuinely do.
I've tried a few things to help - i.e getting more sleep, no electrical devices or tv after 9pm etc But none of it ever worked.
I've considered asking my doctor if there's any, like, concentration tablet they can give me - like you see all the american kids taking before exams and gooseberry fool - but don't want to resort to the chemical option for fear of dependency, side effects etc. And I worry that it'll make me sound quite loopy in all honesty.
Sorry, this has turned into a GreenGecko style ramble (no offence GG
) - I've never really got this off my chest before. Apart from my missus, I don't think I've brought it up with anyone in the past.
I think maybe I've tried to explain it, but people will make snidey remarks, saying it's just me being lazy or work shy, but it really isn't, so that makes me want to not talk about it again really