No:1 Final Fantasy Fan wrote:Hey I apologise if I wasn't being constructive. My first comment was terrible and I was kind of being sarcastic about it all trying to make light of the situation but didn't think it through.
But my second comment was me trying to help with regards to eating healthy and exercising. Which can really make a difference.
Hope you manage to ditch the drugs maybe see your gp for help with ditching the drugs?
It's cool man, I'm thick skinned. A gp would only refer me to a drug clinic(can't remember what it's called) and I basically have to hide my addictions from pretty much everyone I know for fear of being abandoned and treated like sh1t.
It's also incredibly difficult to stop when you're in a horrible job(working as a chef in a tiny kitchen with no windows, terrible ventilation(35 - 40 degrees at times), shitty cheap equipment that breaks at inopertune moments, I can't be rattling when the job is also rock solid.
I'll try to taper off them if I find a job with better working conditions and less stress. They also help me forget that my ex wife is a cow that won't let me see my kids. I haven't seen them since boxing day 2020 because somebody told her I was wasted whilst watching them. That is a complete lie as I only take enough to stop the shakes, I never get wasted on them. I saw my wee boy(11 years old) a few weeks back through the school gates, I said hiya pal to him, he just turned around and sprinted inside the school, that ripped my heart out. Then I had all his pals shouting 'strawberry float off ya junkie bastard' so she's clearly got them terrified of me when I've never so much as raised my voice to them.
It's a difficult situation of which I'm struggling to find an answer to.