Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Rocsteady » Tue Feb 05, 2019 4:35 pm

True, it is really tough to break the cycle and actually get out. No one's gonna do it for you though man, as gooseberry fool as it is to hear.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Johnny Ryall » Mon Feb 18, 2019 7:22 pm

Started a new job in a different part of the building today. The work is exactly me, but socially it's absolutely awful, near empty part of the building and the folks who are there do a lot of scowling. Doesn't much help that my old team surprised me with a collection on Friday. It's like great I've gone from working with people who crack me up constantly to actual fun sponges.

All things in time I suppose, I've never been good with big changes.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Rocsteady » Mon Feb 18, 2019 8:03 pm

I feel absolutely dreadful today, not sure what the issue is. Ready to chuck it all in and take up smack in SE Asia. Hoping to feel better tomorrow.

Not sure if meeting someone at the weekend impacted me. Got talking to a girl on the train on Saturday and spent the whole weekend with her; she was very creatively minded and had some convincing arguments for living with only the bare minimum and following your dreams as you go. Which isn't always possible but it made me reevaluate my situation where I can travel to wherever I want which is what I always desired. Doing something in an industry which I amn't massively passionate about maybe isn't the best use of my time though.

I think I'm always very hung up with the concept of time since if I was following my disease's average life expectancy I'd now have less than a decade to live. I never want to waste any time but when I just go off and try to make it with no job in exciting adventures I end up rapidly sliding into depression and addiction due to lack of structure.

I dunno, I'll probably be fine the morn.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Corazon de Leon » Tue Feb 19, 2019 12:30 am

Rocsteady wrote:I feel absolutely dreadful today, not sure what the issue is. Ready to chuck it all in and take up smack in SE Asia. Hoping to feel better tomorrow.

Not sure if meeting someone at the weekend impacted me. Got talking to a girl on the train on Saturday and spent the whole weekend with her; she was very creatively minded and had some convincing arguments for living with only the bare minimum and following your dreams as you go. Which isn't always possible but it made me reevaluate my situation where I can travel to wherever I want which is what I always desired. Doing something in an industry which I amn't massively passionate about maybe isn't the best use of my time though.

I think I'm always very hung up with the concept of time since if I was following my disease's average life expectancy I'd now have less than a decade to live. I never want to waste any time but when I just go off and try to make it with no job in exciting adventures I end up rapidly sliding into depression and addiction due to lack of structure.

I dunno, I'll probably be fine the morn.


Don't do anything stupid, man. If nothing else, you don't wanna fall into the Trainspotting, Hibs supporting stereotype. ;)

No jokes though, she's right. There is a strong argument for it. But there are also strong arguments against that kind of transient lifestyle that your mind probably isn't letting you see right now. Sit tight for a day or two, think it out, logically and calmly, and decide where you want to go from there. But for strawberry float's sake make sure you don't end up in a Taiwanese opium den or some gooseberry fool. :dread:

You've spoken about your illness before and how it might well cut into your life expectancy. Do you have any ambitions left in terms of travel or experience? Is there anything you'd regret if you found out you couldn't do it tomorrow? Perhaps you need exciting adventures, but with a little more structure and planning, to avoid going off at the deep end when you arrive in an exotic location?

Are you travelling at the moment, or working somewhere?

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Rocsteady » Tue Feb 19, 2019 8:25 am

Corazon de Leon wrote:
Rocsteady wrote:I feel absolutely dreadful today, not sure what the issue is. Ready to chuck it all in and take up smack in SE Asia. Hoping to feel better tomorrow.

Not sure if meeting someone at the weekend impacted me. Got talking to a girl on the train on Saturday and spent the whole weekend with her; she was very creatively minded and had some convincing arguments for living with only the bare minimum and following your dreams as you go. Which isn't always possible but it made me reevaluate my situation where I can travel to wherever I want which is what I always desired. Doing something in an industry which I amn't massively passionate about maybe isn't the best use of my time though.

I think I'm always very hung up with the concept of time since if I was following my disease's average life expectancy I'd now have less than a decade to live. I never want to waste any time but when I just go off and try to make it with no job in exciting adventures I end up rapidly sliding into depression and addiction due to lack of structure.

I dunno, I'll probably be fine the morn.


Don't do anything stupid, man. If nothing else, you don't wanna fall into the Trainspotting, Hibs supporting stereotype. ;)

No jokes though, she's right. There is a strong argument for it. But there are also strong arguments against that kind of transient lifestyle that your mind probably isn't letting you see right now. Sit tight for a day or two, think it out, logically and calmly, and decide where you want to go from there. But for strawberry float's sake make sure you don't end up in a Taiwanese opium den or some gooseberry fool. :dread:

You've spoken about your illness before and how it might well cut into your life expectancy. Do you have any ambitions left in terms of travel or experience? Is there anything you'd regret if you found out you couldn't do it tomorrow? Perhaps you need exciting adventures, but with a little more structure and planning, to avoid going off at the deep end when you arrive in an exotic location?

Are you travelling at the moment, or working somewhere?

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Yeah that's true. I don't think I actually would, my liver would rapidly collapse if I was going on the heroin i reckon.

Had a really long sleep so I think I feel a little better, will see how the day goes. My lifestyle the now has been decent for my mental health in that I'm seeing the world but have structured work from a laptop. It might not be the most fulfilling field of work in that I'm not helping or really benefiting others with it but otherwise it should be fairly perfect for me.

I'm in Athens just now which I've been really enjoying, on the move again in a couple of weeks too. I think maybe it was just one of those days that kick up occasionally. I hope. Thanks.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Preezy » Tue Feb 19, 2019 12:48 pm

Rocsteady wrote:.

If you don't mind me asking, what line of work are you in? I find it fascinating that people can travel the world and just live where they end up all whilst working from a laptop. I live a very structured 9-5 lifestyle with a wife and 2 kids, the antithesis of how you seem to be living and I just can't picture how that must play out day-to-day. Quite jealous really :lol:

Also, just curious what the medical condition is that you're living with? Feel free to tell me to strawberry float off of course :P

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Rocsteady » Tue Feb 19, 2019 5:49 pm

Preezy wrote:
Rocsteady wrote:.

If you don't mind me asking, what line of work are you in? I find it fascinating that people can travel the world and just live where they end up all whilst working from a laptop. I live a very structured 9-5 lifestyle with a wife and 2 kids, the antithesis of how you seem to be living and I just can't picture how that must play out day-to-day. Quite jealous really :lol:

Also, just curious what the medical condition is that you're living with? Feel free to tell me to strawberry float off of course :P

I do marketing, I think remote work is becoming increasingly common in different fields though. It's normally great for me tbh. I get extremely restless very quickly so it's one of probably only a few jobs I could hold down long term, the thought of living with a partner and potentially having children absolutely kills me. Not that there's anything wrong with it obviously, just not for me. At least not at this stage. It's changed my personality too, I'm a lot more friendly and outgoing now when I want to be as you have to be when living on the road constantly, otherwise you go crazy from not talking to anyone.

Tbh I'm probably just a bit of a drama queen when depressed with my illnesses. I've had quite a few near death experiences with OD's, severe blood clot and pulmonary embolism, near liver failure etc, but it's the PSC I was diagnosed with years ago that I suspect when depressed will keel me over, don't exactly always live correctly for someone with the disease. I don't even normally think about any of health issues much, I think ignoring them works well. For all I know I'll live to 70, just talk shite.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Green Gecko » Tue Feb 19, 2019 5:59 pm

I work independently form my own brand/studio as well, and sometimes from co-working spaces and cafes for similar reasons, although I have a solid relationship which I need for emoshions and to combat loneliness absolutely. And also for health reasons - I can't hold down a job for longer than a year, what with it typically requiring some combination of (1) insane commuting hours (2) open-plan offices that set my neurological deficits into overdrive and (3) general communication difficulties strawberry floating everything up, or being ousted unfairly because a lack of skills to negotiate those situations or just bad luck with really shitty or unhelpful bosses and bad companies.

Now I effectively vet all of my customers, and do what I can to make my work life as sympathetic to my needs as possible, as in the past despite the legislation (equality act) that should protect me nobody else has done this, even when they have apparently tried. Consequently I'm hardly raking it in at all but it's fair to say that some people do end up quite well off if they stick at it establishing their own independent source of income not reliant on anybody else, which in this economy, is quite a valuable thing.

My sleep is still totally strawberry floated. Due to a mixture of meds and insanely deep dreams that seem linked to my neurotype I consistently sleep 12 hours per day, work late into the night, and get up in the afternoon. You can't sustain even a part time job with that kind of problem structured deeply into your brain. I might try hypnosis to see if I can snap out of it, but it tends to get dug in after short periods of high stress and needing to work late to meet ridiculous deadlines set by clients and my inhibition to say "no".

I see myself in a position say 10 years where I have a personal assistant, occupational therapist and an managing director dealing with all the gooseberry fool I struggle with, and just focusing on my creative strengths that are really the bedrock of any business that is going to survive with so much competition out there. I think being fully aware of your weakness and having plans for how to overcome them is the key. It's hard to follow through even at the best of times, but having some vision for how to see it through is in itself a solid coping strategy for the long term.

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