Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Drumstick » Thu Jul 11, 2019 6:01 pm

Sounds like you should do yourself a favour and hang around with them less.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Rocsteady » Mon Jul 15, 2019 8:09 pm

I’m back to desperately trying to stave off suicidal thoughts. Come at a good time with some important client meetings over the next few days, I’ve not felt right in a good while now though.

I’m really struggling with finding what I want from life. I’ve got a bit of an open relationship at the moment, and had a threesome with two lasses from uni at the weekend who had just randomly dropped me a text. It was a laugh at the time but I feel even worse since and don’t know why. If I was a teenager again I’d think I have everything I ever wanted and yet I’m no happier now than the majority of my adult life.

Feel like I can’t escape the crushing feeling of life no matter what I do which is making it hard for me to keep trying to better myself by aiming towards something. Feel like my mind is just in a haze, in a thick cloud I can’t escape from. I don’t know what to do to get away from it.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Rocsteady » Mon Jul 22, 2019 8:27 pm

Has anyone called Samaritans before? I feel like I’m reaching breaking point, the last few days I keep crying and am actively having to stop me chucking myself off the balcony. Thankfully my new flat's only two floors up so I probably won’t do it as I’d just shatter my legs.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by poshrule_uk » Mon Jul 22, 2019 8:39 pm

Curls wrote:I was down last night. It was started by two close female friends abandoning me and purposely not telling me their plans just because I’m male, and they’ve done it before. I need to start appreciating myself more that is correct, and also stop running around for them so much, they don’t give a gooseberry fool about me and I’m pretty great actually. I just wish I wasn’t so effected by the environment and people around me and could just focus on my own self love a bit more( no not wanking).


I was down all weekend because a colleague at work said they hope I die on the way home on Friday just gone in response to a joke we were having. I have replayed this over in my head and the response was not justified.

It really shook me and knocked the wind out of me and I'm not really sure how to deal with this, he knows I'm not happy about it but after that I rather have nothing to do with him but it's a bit difficult when they are on your team.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by PaperMacheMario » Mon Jul 22, 2019 8:45 pm

Rocsteady wrote:Has anyone called Samaritans before? I feel like I’m reaching breaking point, the last few days I keep crying and am actively having to stop me chucking myself off the balcony. Thankfully my new flat's only two floors up so I probably won’t do it as I’d just shatter my legs.

I’ve not but I would urge you to do so if that’s how you’re feeling right now mate. If anything they can point you in the right direction in receiving help and support.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Outrunner » Mon Jul 22, 2019 8:51 pm

Rocsteady wrote:Has anyone called Samaritans before? I feel like I’m reaching breaking point, the last few days I keep crying and am actively having to stop me chucking myself off the balcony. Thankfully my new flat's only two floors up so I probably won’t do it as I’d just shatter my legs.


Yes, several times, mostly when I've been suicidal but also when I've "just" been really low and felt I didn't want to burden anyone. All but one of the people I spoke to was great (and the one that wasn't great wasn't awful). They'll stay on the line as long as you need and even offered me a callback the following day (a different person but still it was nice that someone touched base with me). I'd definitely do it, it was a life line for me while I was waiting for other things to be put in places.

I will say the first call was a little...awkward I guess. I didn't know what to expect or what to say but the woman on the phone was great. It might also be worth checking your local Samaritans (if you have one). The one in my town had a drop in centre (I'm not sure if they still do).

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Rocsteady » Mon Jul 22, 2019 9:59 pm

Thanks guys. I’m over in Belgium for now so won’t have a local one but if I’m feeling the same tomorrow I’ll try give them a call.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Oblomov Boblomov » Mon Jul 22, 2019 10:14 pm

Hang in there, you can do it.

How's the gym these days, are you still unable to workout much? Have you tried running? I swear by it these days for all-round health benefit.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Rocsteady » Tue Jul 23, 2019 8:50 am

Thanks. Yeah I’m doing quite a lot, getting up every morning to either run or do weights, alternating each. My wrist is quite strawberry floated which isn’t helping on the weights side but getting on ok with them. They tend to provide the main respite I have, normally have a 30ish minute period after exercising where the endorphins level me out a bit.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Victor Mildew » Tue Jul 23, 2019 8:52 am

Is this topic readable to those who aren't members?

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Albear » Tue Jul 23, 2019 9:19 am

I didnt think so but worth a check.

karl_ wrote:Is this topic readable to those who aren't members?

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by jawafour » Tue Jul 23, 2019 9:33 am

Ad7 wrote:Is this topic readable to those who aren't members?

I believe it is; when not logged in, it can still be read.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Victor Mildew » Tue Jul 23, 2019 9:47 am

Thanks Jawa.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Karl_ » Tue Jul 23, 2019 10:33 am

Albear wrote:I didnt think so but worth a check.

karl_ wrote:Is this topic readable to those who aren't members?


The whole Stuff forum is readable to guests. I can code a custom rule if we'd prefer it be hidden. I personally don't mind, if there are lurkers who are helped by reading along that's great, but I also understand people may have privacy concerns.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Victor Mildew » Tue Jul 23, 2019 10:43 am

It was because there's certain people I don't want seeing what I had to say. But as you mention, it may be helping strangers somewhere which can only be a good thing.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Pedz » Tue Jul 23, 2019 10:45 am

Make a topic in the trading thread ;)

Tbh, I hope all is OK as. I get not saying much here as if privacy is a concern, but I think talking to someone here even via PM may be beneficial.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Drumstick » Tue Jul 23, 2019 10:56 am

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Oblomov Boblomov » Tue Jul 23, 2019 7:45 pm

Rocsteady wrote:Thanks. Yeah I’m doing quite a lot, getting up every morning to either run or do weights, alternating each. My wrist is quite strawberry floated which isn’t helping on the weights side but getting on ok with them. They tend to provide the main respite I have, normally have a 30ish minute period after exercising where the endorphins level me out a bit.

That endorphin rush is pretty much the best thing :datass: I love it.

What sort of level are you at with running? I got quite into it for a while but couldn't get my 5k under 21 minutes. I hate to use this excuse but some people seem built for running (e.g. long, slim, springy) and I am none of those things!

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Rocsteady » Thu Jul 25, 2019 5:18 pm

Oblomov Boblomov wrote:
Rocsteady wrote:Thanks. Yeah I’m doing quite a lot, getting up every morning to either run or do weights, alternating each. My wrist is quite strawberry floated which isn’t helping on the weights side but getting on ok with them. They tend to provide the main respite I have, normally have a 30ish minute period after exercising where the endorphins level me out a bit.

That endorphin rush is pretty much the best thing :datass: I love it.

What sort of level are you at with running? I got quite into it for a while but couldn't get my 5k under 21 minutes. I hate to use this excuse but some people seem built for running (e.g. long, slim, springy) and I am none of those things!

I’m not great at all, still much more focussed on weights. Tend to just do roughly 5k in about 25 minutes, don’t really track myself or aim for constant progression as I do in the gym. Aiming for being back on the 170kg deadlift 1x8 for mid-August which is helping my mood though.

Been a lot better the last couple of days, trying to just take it easy, eat well and basically do what I want. Which seems to be lots of sitting around after work reading and watching gooseberry fool tv but that’s fine.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Oblomov Boblomov » Thu Jul 25, 2019 7:52 pm

Rocsteady wrote:
Oblomov Boblomov wrote:
Rocsteady wrote:Thanks. Yeah I’m doing quite a lot, getting up every morning to either run or do weights, alternating each. My wrist is quite strawberry floated which isn’t helping on the weights side but getting on ok with them. They tend to provide the main respite I have, normally have a 30ish minute period after exercising where the endorphins level me out a bit.

That endorphin rush is pretty much the best thing :datass: I love it.

What sort of level are you at with running? I got quite into it for a while but couldn't get my 5k under 21 minutes. I hate to use this excuse but some people seem built for running (e.g. long, slim, springy) and I am none of those things!

I’m not great at all, still much more focussed on weights. Tend to just do roughly 5k in about 25 minutes, don’t really track myself or aim for constant progression as I do in the gym. Aiming for being back on the 170kg deadlift 1x8 for mid-August which is helping my mood though.

Been a lot better the last couple of days, trying to just take it easy, eat well and basically do what I want. Which seems to be lots of sitting around after work reading and watching gooseberry fool tv but that’s fine.

170kg is fantasy land for me. Best I ever did was 155kg and these days I'm down to 100kg.

Glad to hear you're feeling better.

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