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by aayl1 » Wed Dec 02, 2020 1:57 pm

Zilnad wrote:I know it's awful to say this but I feel shitty this morning after reading the vaccine news. It is excellent news, my wife is in the highest risk category for God sake, but it's the impending return to "normal" that has immediately put me on a downer. It'll be good to see friends and family again but everything else about "normal" was gooseberry fool and I don't understand why I have to sacrifice everything that's made me happy because some banana split who pays my wages wants to be a nasty, stubborn piece of gooseberry fool.


You know what? There's a part of me that feels the same way - I've been loving working from home recently (despite some initial apprehension and a couple of bad weeks).

Hopefully my employer will let me do a bit more of a staggered return or just 2 days in 3 days home.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Vermilion » Wed Dec 02, 2020 2:10 pm

Lagamorph wrote:My anxiety has now returned with a vengeance after being told this morning that my brother is showing signs of Covid. Coughing a lot and says his lungs feel terrible, so I'm now incredibly worried about him, my mum and my niece.


So sorry to hear this, i hope he recovers soon.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Green Gecko » Wed Dec 02, 2020 3:16 pm

Zilnad wrote:I know it's awful to say this but I feel shitty this morning after reading the vaccine news. It is excellent news, my wife is in the highest risk category for God sake, but it's the impending return to "normal" that has immediately put me on a downer. It'll be good to see friends and family again but everything else about "normal" was gooseberry fool and I don't understand why I have to sacrifice everything that's made me happy because some banana split who pays my wages wants to be a nasty, stubborn piece of gooseberry fool.

In 10 years I really hope you can find the path to contract out instead or form your own firm or partnership so you don't have to deal with that, but then you have to deal with lots of customers which can potentially be bad or worse; at least you can choose not to serve them however.

It's totally understandable if you're forced by whatever force/circumstance/need in society to earn a living this or that way and you suffer because of some parts of that you wouldn't want to return to that. The idea everyone is work shy or unreasonable because they don't get on well in heavily corporatised environments is total bollocks and there really are a lot of alternatives but unfortunately they often don't come with the same securities.

However having been treated like gooseberry fool by zero hours contracts, full time contracts, unpaid internships and temp work and unsupported job interviews etc etc all alike I eventually learnt that this is also a lie, the truth is everything is in a state of flux and no job is "secured" these days, so it sure made me think differently about it and dramatically evaluate what was important to me in life. But I'm "fortunate' enough to be elegible for other securities like I have just finally after years and years of being snubbed sorted out some care arrangements for myself with the neighbourhood support team / adult social care and I get the right disability benefits so I can pay to live as best as I can on equal terms with everyone who does not struggle with communication or anxiety in the typical workplace or anything like that.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Jenuall » Wed Dec 02, 2020 3:22 pm

Good post from GG there, but also just to say even if you are not able to contract or setup your own: not all places to work are gooseberry fool. Some are even quite nice!

I'd really encourage you to try and look for somewhere better as it sounds like you would be hard pressed to find somewhere as bad as where you are at right now.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Green Gecko » Wed Dec 02, 2020 3:32 pm

Yeah. I definitely have a tainted experience. Counselling helps but I still bang on about my more negative work experiences to anyone who will listen. It's chronic. And probably makes me unemployable at this point. :fp:

Perhaps I could expand in one respect. One of my managers was friendly, but inexperienced. Another was a highly paid, but awful manager (again, just a bad manager) in a very nice place to work. The office I worked in for the longest (1.5 years) was also a nice office and building and area, in fact I helped set it up (I built and networked all of the computers). A lot of my struggles are down to my weaknesses, but thanks to the equality act, at least in principle, I am supposed to alleviate those things with extra help and minor changes, which I never got.

Maybe one day, I will return to a university, or design company, or something like that, which actually treats its employees well and follows the letter of the law when it comes to getting the best out of disadvantaged people who nonetheless have some incredible skills and great qualifications. Sadly, I do thinks it's pretty hard to find those employers. graduating after a recession, going straight into unpaid work in an industry rife with Cowboys, gooseberry fool supplier/buyer terms (media) and so many other systemic issues, was not a great start. And everyone is desperate to get their foot in the door. It really was the worst time in the last couple of decades to join the "world of work", despite all the studying and the real achievements in my past, which demonstrate to most positive people I meet, a real character and fortitude to fight where most would have simply given up.

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by Trelliz » Fri Dec 18, 2020 11:26 am

I'm normally fairly cynical of Christmas at the best of times, but hearing christmas songs on the radio etc after news reports of failing trade talks and Corona restrictions is doing a real number on me.

I get that people need something to look forward to etc, but to me it's like the naive optimism of new years eve somehow making all the gooseberry fool stuff somehow go away amplified to 5000, I just can't handle it.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Outrunner » Fri Dec 18, 2020 10:01 pm

I know what you mean. I don't particularly enjoy Christmas at the best of times but it seems worse this year. I'm trying to avoid the news as much as possible and my mindset now is just to get through it. I'm around pretty much all over Christmas if you want to drop me a PM at any time.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Karl_ » Fri Dec 18, 2020 10:07 pm

I agree, I've also been finding it very difficult to relax right now knowing 2021 could easily be even worse than 2020. :(

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Prototype » Sat Dec 19, 2020 7:55 am

Absolutely riddled with anxiety just now. Took me not being able to open my work laptop to know I had to seek help. I've had anxiety issues before but this takes the biscuit. Work is definitely a factor, but the combination of 2020 plus a multitude of other worries has left me feeling a mess mentally.

I've been on fluoxetine before for anxiety but have been prescribed setraline this time. They said it would take a while to settle so I have felt increased anxiety over the last 7 days but hope it levels out.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Drumstick » Sat Dec 19, 2020 8:09 am

Sorry to hear that.

What is making you anxious besides work?

Re: work, gotta remember it's just a job. Yes it's important but it's not that important.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Prototype » Sat Dec 19, 2020 8:20 am

Harry Ellis wrote:Sorry to hear that.

What is making you anxious besides work?

Re: work, gotta remember it's just a job. Yes it's important but it's not that important.


Difficult to say. Having read the comments in here on misophonia and phonophobia... im convinced i have something similar. Had issues with my neighbour using a tumble dryer last year but it stopped in January this year when I *think* they got a new one which was clearly quieter. I've recently tuned into it again and whilst it is better its still triggering an unreasonable reaction in me.

Also, i lost a close family friend recently which compounded things...on top of 2020 and the difficulties most people are facing.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Vermilion » Sat Dec 19, 2020 9:16 am

Have you been able to speak to a professional about how you're feeling? I found that an emergency counselling session helped when i was struggling recently (i sourced an independent non-NHS one locally as it meant i didn't have to wait).

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Prototype » Sat Dec 19, 2020 4:19 pm

Vermi Claus wrote:Have you been able to speak to a professional about how you're feeling? I found that an emergency counselling session helped when i was struggling recently (i sourced an independent non-NHS one locally as it meant i didn't have to wait).


Not yet but I've instigated the counselling package that my employer offers.

Paying for someone for a bit more of an immediate help might be something I have to consider.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by aayl1 » Sat Dec 19, 2020 6:14 pm

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Vermi Claus wrote:Have you been able to speak to a professional about how you're feeling? I found that an emergency counselling session helped when i was struggling recently (i sourced an independent non-NHS one locally as it meant i didn't have to wait).


Not yet but I've instigated the counselling package that my employer offers.

Paying for someone for a bit more of an immediate help might be something I have to consider.


I saw (and am still seeing) a private counseller for anxiety after I started having panic attacks about work and essentially stopped working for 6 months over it. I found mine on BACP (Google this - not sure of the exact site) - you can search by area and specialism.

Mine was £60 for an hour in London, which I had the luxury of being able to afford but I didn't think it was that bad once a week. I've dropped down to once every two weeks now as I work on stuff with her that's a bit less urgent.

Anxiety really sucks, especially as you start spiralling about how stupid it is to be anxious etc etc. Hope things start getting better for you soon.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Skarjo » Sun Dec 20, 2020 6:53 am

Went to a psychiatrist for the first time yesterday after a really bad few months that sessions with my counselor just didn't seem to be cutting through. Got prescribed some meds and holy strawberry floating gooseberry fool in a year that's centered around hernias and oesophageal burns and proton pump inhibitors and I've still never felt as nauseous as just one of these strawberry floaters did.

Apparently it should subside so fingers crossed but I legit had to bail out a brunch with some mates because not only could I not eat anything but I was basically sat there silently focusing on not vomming over the table.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by aayl1 » Sun Dec 20, 2020 10:51 am

Throne of Lies wrote: I legit had to bail out a brunch with some mates because not only could I not eat anything but I was basically sat there silently focusing on not vomming over the table.


Sounds like a sicky situation.

In all seriousness though hope that the meds help! I'm thinking of taking propanalol to help with my anxiety symptoms as after working with my therapist it seems like it's the symptoms that I focus in on when I'm anxious and it clouds my thinking to the point of paralysis.

Hope that you're doing okay in what must have been a very stressful couple of years over there x x x

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Skarjo » Sun Dec 20, 2020 11:50 am

I’ve been prescribed 50mg of Desvenlafaxine a day, and I’m not sure what that means beyond having hit the nausea with all the other post-hernia drugs I was given that it faded after about 3 hours.

The thing that really strawberry floats me off is that apparently no one who was responsible for putting me on heavy stomach medication thought to tell me that a side effect of effectively not having any gastric acid since February is clinical depression because you can’t process vitamin B12 into serotonin.

And now I’m taking pills that make me want to vom out a lovely brunch coz all I want is the motivation to make having a shower not feel like the only thing I can hack in a day.

...

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by aayl1 » Sun Dec 20, 2020 3:16 pm

Throne of Lies wrote:I’ve been prescribed 50mg of Desvenlafaxine a day, and I’m not sure what that means beyond having hit the nausea with all the other post-hernia drugs I was given that it faded after about 3 hours.

The thing that really strawberry floats me off is that apparently no one who was responsible for putting me on heavy stomach medication thought to tell me that a side effect of effectively not having any gastric acid since February is clinical depression because you can’t process vitamin B12 into serotonin.

And now I’m taking pills that make me want to vom out a lovely brunch coz all I want is the motivation to make having a shower not feel like the only thing I can hack in a day.

...

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Sounds fun!

Not mental health related but reminded me of a girl I knew who got IBS for life coz she strawberry floated some guy with a massive dick

Big dick -> Nasty UTI -> Nasty antibiotics -> all healthy gut flora devastated beyond repair -> thus far incurable IBS


And he was a one night stand.

Merry Christmas!

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Drumstick » Sun Dec 20, 2020 4:04 pm

awaayl1 in a manger wrote:Not mental health related but reminded me of a girl I knew who got IBS for life coz she strawberry floated some guy with a massive dick

Big dick -> Nasty UTI -> Nasty antibiotics -> all healthy gut flora devastated beyond repair -> thus far incurable IBS


And he was a one night stand.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by aayl1 » Sun Dec 20, 2020 4:08 pm

Nah I give girls UTIs because of the cleanliness, not the size of mine.

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