Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions

I did a shop last night and stock was basically at normal levels. Even toilet roll was plentiful. I wouldn't worry about it.

I am feeling a fair bit better today. Honestly I think breaking down and having a good cry last night was actually really beneficial.

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Pizza Hut is still delivering too, so there won't be a shortage of food

If anyone is panicking about shopping or just going out in general, the co op seem to be on deliveroo and uber eats. I hope that helps a little.

Their delivery areas are quite limited to areas in the North (Except the part of the North I'm in), but if you're in any of these Postcodes another wholesaler, https://delifresh-ltd.myshopify.com/ , have opened up for consumer grocery shopping,

All BD, LS, WF, HX, HD, HG, YO1, YO2, YO3, YO4, YO5, YO6
All NE, DH Postcodes (except NE66,65,71,19)
All WA, L, CH Postcodes (except L39/40)(CH5/6/7/8)

They offer delivery or collection from one of their depots and sell both food and a few non-food essentials like toilet paper and bin bags.

My mood has hit rock bottom today after work keep pestering me about coming back into the office. Makes me feel like I should go in just to stop my worrying but then I'll feel gooseberry fool anyway because I got bullied into work so I can't win either way. Feeling so anxious and miserable about the whole situation.

Zilnad wrote:My mood has hit rock bottom today after work keep pestering me about coming back into the office. Makes me feel like I should go in just to stop my worrying but then I'll feel gooseberry fool anyway because I got bullied into work so I can't win either way. Feeling so anxious and miserable about the whole situation.

Health comes first. Don't let them pressure you into this. I would draft an email saying that you don't feel comfortable coming in (with some scientific evidence backing you up re: covid-19), then get a friend to proof-read it and get feedback from them. Send it off, close your laptop, take a deep breath and drink a beer

I'm currently on a week off booked ages ago as holiday, I'd be due to go back Monday but I live with a vunerable person so my company said in that case you can tell them that and not go in and you'll be paid your contracted hours which is good.

The downsides though my boss messaged saying you might get paid now but the company have said they can withdraw this at anytime at will, I don't care if they withdraw it I have some savings and would rather stay of and loose money it's just adds a bit stress her saying that kind of wish she'd not said anything till it needed saying. Works also added me to a watsap group and some people in there are still working and struggling and getting emotional and it makes me feel like a bad person being safe and out of it while there not.

Thanks everyone. I got out and got my medication ok. Town was quiet but there were more people than I expected.

RE: Exams - I do have a learning support plan in place which gives me extra time due to anxiety but that doesn't factor in typing. My LSP does mention exam anxiety so all I can really do it keep them updated and see what they suggest closer to the time (tbf they've been really good in the past with my anxiety issues). I'm just really scared of failing this foundation year and not being able to progress onto the degree I actually want to do. I've put a lot of work in and don't want the exams to flush it all away.

Created this today as a means of trying to help those who are struggling with their mental health, it provides the viewer with relaxing images and laid back music, and i hope it will be a useful distraction to anyone who is feeling particularly stressed out at the moment.

Vermilion wrote:Created this today as a means of trying to help those who are struggling with their mental health, it provides the viewer with relaxing images and laid back music...

Nice production, Vermi! It is chilled and many of us could probably do with that at the moment. I'm envious of folk who have a garden!

Speaking of gardens, well we have a patio because conservatory/kitchen was built over it by previous occupants, I totally upset my partner after she accidentally cut down a 10 year old flowering climber at the base mistaking it for a weed, and then totally broke down , I ended up on the floor hugging a rare electric guitar I bought in 2009 with money from my uncle who used to actually ask how my school/career was going (my parents don't do that) because he was dying from lukemia and a lot of stuff fell of my brain, and snorting all over the flightcase. That was after I stayed up until 5am listening to recordings I've never published off my band that meets roughly once per year now. gooseberry fool is weird man, she's working in the study now as been falling asleep on the sofa and things are all a bit blurred together and strange.

I still remember really wanting that guitar around 2007 and to take my music more seriously, something I've never really done. It's upsetting that nobody really knows about it and I've spent 24 years mastering something but I've created something else to work on now and had it been the other way around I'd just be wondering what I'm going to do with my art instead.

Took the camera along on my daily exercise walk yesterday (the location is roughly 1/2 mile from home), and so have produced another chilled out relaxation video, hope you like...

Regarding my own issues, physically i feel like i'm finally back to normal, and it has taken weeks since my symptoms began to fade for me to actually reach this point (first day of covid symptoms was March 13th).

I do wonder however, how i am going to be able to mentally manage with busy places again once lockdown ends. Before, i was used to places like Oxford St and could handle them without issue, but nowadays, i can feel myself getting agitated and panicky just in the supermarkets, which is not normal for me at all (it's even worse if someone won't keep their distance). I think it could be quite a while before i'm able to properly cope with the major city centres again, which is going to be an absolute pain as pre-lockdown, they were my most visited places.

Really not had a good week mentally. Need to find a way to ground myself over the weekend

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My ability to deal with stress and anger management is getting worse. My job does come with a pretty high level of responsibilities but I'm finding myself getting so angry over everything, normally exercise is a great way of dealing with that but the insomnia is so debilitating. The weird thing is you do kind of get used to functioning on less sleep but it's not good.

Having a pretty awful time recently.

I had been on a great 6 month sabbatical trip around Asia with my gf, but 3 months in(December) her mum was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. My gf flew back for around 10 days over Christmas, came back to Asia and we carried on our trip. Obviously this was hanging over her head but we still managed to enjoy it. We were due to return April 1st, but sadly had to cut our trip short by just over a week because of Corona virus and flights being cancelled. This wasn't the end of the world, but was very stressful and meant we had to sit around in Bangkok going back and forth to Airlines to get a earlier flight. We managed to get one of the last ones out to the UK.

We live in Germany, but our flight out of the UK was cancelled, so we are effectively stuck here until May at the earliest. We were staying with my parents, but unfortunately whilst there we got news that my gf's mums cancer had spread (despite her seeming well), and has been given 3 to 6 months to live. We were all obviously shocked by this, but we knew pancreatic cancer is a banana split. So we quarantined with my parents for 2 weeks, and have now moved back to London so we can help out. Her mum has always been the matriarch of the family, so her husband is struggling a bit. I will eventually need to go back to Hamburg, but my gf will likely stay here until the end, if not after, so that's another worry to deal with eventually.

I'm currently wfh on an old shitty PC I found running Windows 7 as my electronics are still in Hamburg. The internet has been awful too so my output hasn't been great as I'm connecting to the server in Germany so it's slow as strawberry float. Doesn't help that I've just started a new role.

The family are always at each others throats as it's obviously a stressful time and I'm caught in the middle of it all. I'm doing my best to help out by cooking etc, but there's not much else I can do other than just be there for them. Last night was really bad, and a nurse came over at about 3am to try help with pain, but it didn't work. So now today she is being moved to a hospice for 1 to 2 weeks. This is pretty gooseberry fool, as she wanted to die at home, and we won't be able to visit because of this strawberry floating virus. I want to go for nice long walks, but people in London seem to think they are immune from the virus and barely acknowledge social distancing. So i'm kinda cooped up here gradually going a bit mad. I've obviously been shunning my feelings as I can't imagine what my gf is going through, but I need a bit of my own space to reset.

And now two strawberry floating pigeons have flown into our bedroom and shat all over the place...

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Sorry to hear that mate, it's a really rough thing to have to deal with for both your GF and you as someone who's just been kind of thrown into the whole situation. Hopefully things ease up a bit, but I'd certainly be trying to get out for walks and avoid the people of London as much as you can. Being stuck in a house will drive you mental in the best of times, let alone just now.

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Grumpy David wrote:
Qikz wrote:Sorry about the above I freaked out and I'm wondering if it might've been the onset of a panic attack or something (I've never had one before). I feel colder again now and in my house it is pretty chilly so hopefully we're good. I just had a slice of bread and im sitting with a big glass of water for a bit to chill out.

I know you're trying to avoid leaving your home for other than getting food but would really recommend going for a walk/jog every day.

Physical exercise does wonders for mental health and sounds like you might have worried yourself sick.

If you're watching 24 hour TV BBC/Sky news whilst working from home, I'd avoid that too. Constant news coverage on the same subject is enough to stress out anyone.

Would echo this. Physical activity/mental health is part of my professional field - you're likely to feel a bit better just for getting some air/steps in once a day (or even once every two days if it really doesn't seem appealing). Would also recommend not spending too much time looking at the news. Individual data points really tell us very little. What I'm doing is checking back every 5-6 days to see how the trend has progressed. I did the lock-inside thing for just under two weeks when this started kicking off (as I had a large number of the symptoms. I've now not had taste or smell for weeks), and it was awful. I feel so much better now I'm exercising/checking the news less often.

I've been using my ring fit for physical activity so that's good and I've got good airflow in my house at least. I've not been reading the news 24 hours. It's just really weird because I haven't necessarily felt worried, I think it was the fact I suddenly felt really hot that scared me and made it worse. I've spoken to Aaron and he thought it may be an anxiety attack as well and it could be related to the fact I've come back to work today (admittedly working from home, but its not like I was thrilled about it!)

Corazon de Leon wrote:Sorry to hear that mate, it's a really rough thing to have to deal with for both your GF and you as someone who's just been kind of thrown into the whole situation. Hopefully things ease up a bit, but I'd certainly be trying to get out for walks and avoid the people of London as much as you can. Being stuck in a house will drive you mental in the best of times, let alone just now.

Yeah, I'll try a big walk later on. I'll just stay logged into my work network as tbh I really don't give a gooseberry fool about it right now.

I think lockdown has finally broken me. I have to force myself out of bed, I nap all the time to avoid having to deal with all of this. Today I just keep crying. I've not felt this lonely for ages and I just can't see an end to this lockdown and I can't see the point in doing anything.

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