imbusydoctorwho wrote:My parents found out I've been taking loads of painkillers, due to various issues going on I've just give up with life. I've been on a up and down spiral since 2017 with various problems ranging from loosing relatives, neighbour problems, parents arguing and other serious issues. I did started to feel a bit better in 2019 but then the whole virus stuff happened and I started to feel incredibly low yet again.
You have no idea how different your life may be in 1 year. I’ve said it before, but most people are one decision away from a completely different life.
I don't do it often enough but it's crazy how just putting yourself out there and trying to communicate with people can completely change your life.
You've gotta keep rolling those dice because every so often you'll roll a 6 and things will start to look up in a big way.
Trouble is when you're depressed it's really really hard to put yourself out there, I get that.
Despite having great success with job interviews last week, I feel really down today. I just hope that if I get the final interview with the company founder that I can muster the energy to do well because I just feel drained today and like I won't be able to do it.
My expected return to the office of a week tomorrow so that whole situation is causing me stress and is probably why I feel gooseberry fool today. But if I end up going through these four interviews and three tests only to be told "we're really sorry but someone else got the job" I don't know how I'm going to react.
Here's hoping I hear something tomorrow so I can at least prepare.