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by KomandaHeck » Wed Mar 18, 2020 2:48 pm

It's had a few 20% discounts but I can't see it dropping much below that anytime soon with the critical and awards buzz it got. It's well worth full price anyway, one of the best and funniest games I've ever played.

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by Lagamorph » Wed Mar 18, 2020 8:58 pm

So I woke up doing pretty well this morning, and wasn't bad at all for the entire morning. But when I went to pick my niece up from school this afternoon she coughed, just once or twice, and god it just triggered me off, I suddenly just felt...like some of the past few days came back, and the feeling just built up again since then.

I hate myself for feeling anxious because of being around my niece.

I'm staying at my mums with my niece for tonight, but when my brother picks her up tomorrow then...then I'm just going to my house and locking myself away as much as I possibly can.
At some point tomorrow or Friday I'm going to need to go to the Post Office and Bank, but that's going to be the only exception really.

I just feel so awful about it though, about feeling like I don't want to be around my niece. I feel guilty, I feel selfish and I just want to keep bursting into tears all over again like I did last night.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Outrunner » Wed Mar 18, 2020 10:10 pm

Lagamorph wrote:So I woke up doing pretty well this morning, and wasn't bad at all for the entire morning. But when I went to pick my niece up from school this afternoon she coughed, just once or twice, and god it just triggered me off, I suddenly just felt...like some of the past few days came back, and the feeling just built up again since then.

I hate myself for feeling anxious because of being around my niece.

I'm staying at my mums with my niece for tonight, but when my brother picks her up tomorrow then...then I'm just going to my house and locking myself away as much as I possibly can.
At some point tomorrow or Friday I'm going to need to go to the Post Office and Bank, but that's going to be the only exception really.

I just feel so awful about it though, about feeling like I don't want to be around my niece. I feel guilty, I feel selfish and I just want to keep bursting into tears all over again like I did last night.


Please don't feel guilty and try not to be so hard on yourself. The thing you've got to remember is that these are extraordinary times and sometimes anything will be a trigger, even if it doesn't make sense. Not directly connected to this but there have been times when being around various family members has triggered my mental health issues. It's an awful feeling but I try to remind myself, I might be feeling anxious and depressed and being around those family members at that particular time might be enhancing those feelings. But, I still love them. The fact that you are feeling bad about it tells me you love your niece and that tells me you aren't a bad person, you aren't a selfish person. You're just a guy who is (understandably) going through a lot right now and sometimes finding it a bit much. There's nothing wrong with that it it definitely doesn't make you a bad person.

I know I've rambled a bit but I hope this helps

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by Lagamorph » Wed Mar 18, 2020 10:33 pm

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Lagamorph wrote:So I woke up doing pretty well this morning, and wasn't bad at all for the entire morning. But when I went to pick my niece up from school this afternoon she coughed, just once or twice, and god it just triggered me off, I suddenly just felt...like some of the past few days came back, and the feeling just built up again since then.

I hate myself for feeling anxious because of being around my niece.

I'm staying at my mums with my niece for tonight, but when my brother picks her up tomorrow then...then I'm just going to my house and locking myself away as much as I possibly can.
At some point tomorrow or Friday I'm going to need to go to the Post Office and Bank, but that's going to be the only exception really.

I just feel so awful about it though, about feeling like I don't want to be around my niece. I feel guilty, I feel selfish and I just want to keep bursting into tears all over again like I did last night.


Please don't feel guilty and try not to be so hard on yourself. The thing you've got to remember is that these are extraordinary times and sometimes anything will be a trigger, even if it doesn't make sense. Not directly connected to this but there have been times when being around various family members has triggered my mental health issues. It's an awful feeling but I try to remind myself, I might be feeling anxious and depressed and being around those family members at that particular time might be enhancing those feelings. But, I still love them. The fact that you are feeling bad about it tells me you love your niece and that tells me you aren't a bad person, you aren't a selfish person. You're just a guy who is (understandably) going through a lot right now and sometimes finding it a bit much. There's nothing wrong with that it it definitely doesn't make you a bad person.

I know I've rambled a bit but I hope this helps

It really does help, thank you. You're right, these are extraordinary times and everyone is going through something they just haven't dealt with before, and I just have no idea how to handle it, how to react, everything is just....new.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Curls » Fri Mar 20, 2020 11:19 am

This event has kind of done the opposite for me.

I feel good again. The fact there is a much larger problem other than my own mental health, and some friends alienating me, it just makes me feel like my problems are no longer an issue.
My ski holiday has been cancelled and I'm working a lot, but I feel useful. I'm healthy (for now) and a key link in a chain. I feel useful.
I'm not getting FOMO anymore as noone is doing gooseberry fool. I'm just going to work and enjoying playing Xbox.

Sad maybe, I dunno. I feel guilty for feeling better when everyone else seems to be feeling terrible, but I feel like I can help people as well and that generally makes me feel better.

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by Vermilion » Fri Mar 20, 2020 2:50 pm

I don't normally talk about this online, but the past week has been tough as hell (mentally as well as physically), i may be feeling on the mend in a physical sense, but i feel pretty traumatised, i'm not sleeping at night and my mind is in overdrive at the moment.

Decided just to type it here, though i have no idea why to be honest as it's hardly gonna make a difference.

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by Jenuall » Fri Mar 20, 2020 3:12 pm

Vermilion wrote:I don't normally talk about this online, but the past week has been tough as hell (mentally as well as physically), i may be feeling on the mend in a physical sense, but i feel pretty traumatised, i'm not sleeping at night and my mind is in overdrive at the moment.

Decided just to type it here, though i have no idea why to be honest as it's hardly gonna make a difference.

Talking always makes a difference, even if it may not feel like it immediately.

Hope you're doing okay man, folks in here are always great at listening if you ever need/want to share more.

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by Lagamorph » Fri Mar 20, 2020 3:14 pm

Vermilion wrote:I don't normally talk about this online, but the past week has been tough as hell (mentally as well as physically), i may be feeling on the mend in a physical sense, but i feel pretty traumatised, i'm not sleeping at night and my mind is in overdrive at the moment.

Decided just to type it here, though i have no idea why to be honest as it's hardly gonna make a difference.

Over these past few days I've found that typing it here, and knowing people are reading and listening, it really does make a difference.

Even if it only makes a small difference, it's still a difference.

We'll all get through his and by helping each other we can get through it even better.

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by Vermilion » Fri Mar 20, 2020 3:21 pm

Thanks guys, after i started feeling unwell i had to shut myself away, my worries during that time have been threefold, firstly i've been terrified of potentially passing it on to family, secondly i've been terrified for my own health (on day 8 now, started feeling better around the latter part of day 6, and it's been steady improvement since), and thirdly, i'm now terrified about everything shutting down, as my life pretty much revolves around travel (it was probably that which was how i contracted the illness in the first place as i was in Central London 5 days before it started) and I really think i'm gonna go stir crazy without it.

Thank you again for listening though, i think i needed to type this up, as i've not told a soul outside of my own home since the beginning, not my friends, not my extended family, no one.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by False » Fri Mar 20, 2020 5:23 pm

I cant see my doctor so had a telephone consultation via my primary care worker - hes got me on some sad pills now as well as my mood stabilisers, probably for the best given the position Ive been in a few times the last month or so

unfortunately Ive tried basically every pill going and they either havent worked or made me sick, but I said Ill go all the way back to start just in case my body takes them differently now

starting on the pleb citalopram which has made me feel sick already, but hopefully Ill get the anorgasmia side effect as thats pretty useful

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by Outrunner » Mon Mar 23, 2020 7:28 pm

I'm starting to get really worried now. Not about the virus per se (but obviously I'm taking all the precautions) but everything surrounding it. I'm in the house alone and starting to feel alone. Sure I can phone or do google hangouts but it's not the same. I'm worried about the potential (likely) lockdown and if I'll be able to get my tablets. I don't know if I should not go to pick them up to do my bit in social distancing. I'm scared about uni and the likely move to online exams (I'm super slow at typing so there goes my pass grade and all the work I've put in so far to get on to the first year of my degree). I'm trying to stay away from news but it's everywhere. Sure I could stay away from social media but that's one of the few areas of social contact I have.

I'm not spiralling yet but I can feel myself slipping.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by False » Mon Mar 23, 2020 7:32 pm

pills are essential - I managed to get mine a little early as I anticipated something might happen

when we know the score you can contact your gp or support person and explain to them the situation, when you can

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by Dual » Mon Mar 23, 2020 7:33 pm

Outrunner wrote:I'm starting to get really worried now. Not about the virus per se (but obviously I'm taking all the precautions) but everything surrounding it. I'm in the house alone and starting to feel alone. Sure I can phone or do google hangouts but it's not the same. I'm worried about the potential (likely) lockdown and if I'll be able to get my tablets. I don't know if I should not go to pick them up to do my bit in social distancing. I'm scared about uni and the likely move to online exams (I'm super slow at typing so there goes my pass grade and all the work I've put in so far to get on to the first year of my degree). I'm trying to stay away from news but it's everywhere. Sure I could stay away from social media but that's one of the few areas of social contact I have.

I'm not spiralling yet but I can feel myself slipping.


Can you get your medicines delivered?

You should be able to get special dispensation for your exams as well.

Try and stay positive.

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by Vermilion » Mon Mar 23, 2020 7:43 pm

Really struggling with my anxiousness surrounding everything at the moment.

Physically i am a lot better now (11 days since i first had symptoms of the dreaded bug, 5 since they started to ease, my self isolation has ended (we've made sure to follow the guidelines), while mum has to stay in for 3 more days before the 14 are up), but mentally i am all over the place.

My biggest worry now is getting to the bank to pay my credit card this week as i'm terrified the place will close (i don't bank online), i'm also responsible for mum's finance which means i have to take care of her stuff there too as i had to take on a lot of those responsibilities after dad died.

For me now, it's less about becoming infected (though i've been told i've probably been traumatised by the experience of having the bug), more protecting mum and sorting out the important stuff, but now i'm dreading every episode of the Daily Boris and i'm scared of what further restrictions could be put in place.

Still, at least i got a small pack of loo roll from poundland today, which was something.

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by Green Gecko » Tue Mar 24, 2020 2:42 pm

Vermilion wrote:Really struggling with my anxiousness surrounding everything at the moment.

Physically i am a lot better now (11 days since i first had symptoms of the dreaded bug, 5 since they started to ease, my self isolation has ended (we've made sure to follow the guidelines), while mum has to stay in for 3 more days before the 14 are up), but mentally i am all over the place.

My biggest worry now is getting to the bank to pay my credit card this week as i'm terrified the place will close (i don't bank online), i'm also responsible for mum's finance which means i have to take care of her stuff there too as i had to take on a lot of those responsibilities after dad died.

For me now, it's less about becoming infected (though i've been told i've probably been traumatised by the experience of having the bug), more protecting mum and sorting out the important stuff, but now i'm dreading every episode of the Daily Boris and i'm scared of what further restrictions could be put in place.

Still, at least i got a small pack of loo roll from poundland today, which was something.

Can you do this via telephone banking? It is much the same as speaking to a person in branch and there's no online transaction, it's all done internally in their system/network.

Outrunner wrote:I'm starting to get really worried now. Not about the virus per se (but obviously I'm taking all the precautions) but everything surrounding it. I'm in the house alone and starting to feel alone. Sure I can phone or do google hangouts but it's not the same. I'm worried about the potential (likely) lockdown and if I'll be able to get my tablets. I don't know if I should not go to pick them up to do my bit in social distancing. I'm scared about uni and the likely move to online exams (I'm super slow at typing so there goes my pass grade and all the work I've put in so far to get on to the first year of my degree). I'm trying to stay away from news but it's everywhere. Sure I could stay away from social media but that's one of the few areas of social contact I have.

I'm not spiralling yet but I can feel myself slipping.

Your pills are definitely essential travel, the withdrawal from SSRIs is bad, so you need to get them.

Also, if you have a slow typing speed, that's not your fault, you should be able to request extra time or to complete the exam on paper or in isolation or something like that. There is an academic appeals process if you feel you couldn't perform as you expected because of circumstances outside of your control, usually this is called mitigating circumstances. It's really not that unusual to need extra time to complete a course as long as a degree, I spent effectively a year and a half extra doing my degree. The most likely way you can be treated unfairly is by not saying anything about it, and I was stuck in that place for at least a year.

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by Vermilion » Tue Mar 24, 2020 2:47 pm

Green Gecko wrote:Can you do this via telephone banking? It is much the same as speaking to a person in branch and there's no online transaction, it's all done internally in their system/network.


I don't normally do that, but if necessary i'll have to look into it. Today though, the bank was actually open, so hopefully it will remain so.

On a separate note...

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This really has done my mental health no favours whatsoever.

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by Green Gecko » Tue Mar 24, 2020 3:01 pm

As that's clearly a mistake I would disregard it. The police aren't going to show up saying you've been leaving the house without permission.

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by Lagamorph » Tue Mar 24, 2020 7:59 pm

Over the last week or so I'd been gradually improving I think, but then today I've gone a bit downhill again. Things at the shops seemed to be starting to improve, there were reports of stock starting to be available again.
Then after last night it all went worse than ever. Online shopping isn't just no slots, the websites are basically inaccessible now. When they do become accessible who knows when slots will be available.

This weekend I'll be going out to do some shopping for me and my mum and I'm just so scared of not being able to get things again. And as much as I try telling myself things will get better I just can't being myself to believe it. What if I run out of food? What if my mum runs out of food because I can't get it for her? What if my brother and sister in law run out of food and can't feed my niece? I just can't stop thinking it and worrying about this Saturday.

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by Vermilion » Tue Mar 24, 2020 8:11 pm

Sorry to hear you're struggling Laga, i hope posting here helps.

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by Lagamorph » Tue Mar 24, 2020 8:18 pm

Vermilion wrote:Sorry to hear you're struggling Laga, i hope posting here helps.

It does help, even if just a little.

If it weren't for the worry about getting food I think I'd be able to handle this all much better. Like I say, I'm just worried for not just myself but my family too.

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