Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by H3AN3Y » Fri Jul 05, 2019 9:41 pm

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by BID0 » Mon Jul 08, 2019 10:03 am

H3AN3Y wrote:Still new here so I’ll be brief... I have been medicated for multiple mental health conditions and I am battling daily if not hourly not to just kill myself. I’m seeking all the appropriate help but can’t seem to get a single person to listen never mind understand how I feel and how I think. I’ve gotten myself in trouble with police and was filed as a missing person and evaded them for hours before making myself known on a public street. I’m not terrified about the consequences I’m terrified at the unpredictable nature that I am showing and the complete lack of care for my well being. I also frequently have vivid nightmares that don’t bother me until I wake up and don’t know where I am, to clarify I’ve been homeless for months now which is the lowest I’ve found myself since diagnosis.

Have you not seen any professionals since your diagnosis?

Regarding the homelessness, hopefully you are able to talk to friends/family in your area? I've found people at work to be quite understanding the last few weeks and have been happy to help or listen when I've needed it. I'm sure that would extend to my friends and family if I had the courage to talk to them about it. Hopefully you have similar people in your life who can put a temporary roof over your head.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by H3AN3Y » Wed Jul 10, 2019 4:51 pm

I have infact seen a psychiatrist, who has now diagnosed me with personality disorder and PTSD. I have seen CPNs and social work and referred back to psychology after multiple GP visits. Spent far too much time with the police. I don’t have much family or friends probably as a result of my personality disorder so I’ve pretty much been alone throughout as people don’t understand my conditions so tend to just leave it to the police who are not nice people

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by H3AN3Y » Wed Jul 10, 2019 4:55 pm

I’ve tried to build a support network but I am genuinely afraid to interact with anyone as even the psychiatrist tells me I’m untreatable be it with meds or through talking therapies

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Drumstick » Wed Jul 10, 2019 5:29 pm

H3AN3Y wrote:I’ve tried to build a support network but I am genuinely afraid to interact with anyone as even the psychiatrist tells me I’m untreatable be it with meds or through talking therapies

GRcade is a very understanding safe haven. It's not the answer to anyone's problems but it's always here as long as GG keeps paying the bills.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Karl_ » Wed Jul 10, 2019 5:54 pm

Yeah, what Drummy said. I know it's not quite the same as something face-to-face, but forums (particularly this thread) are a good way to let it all out, or just chat in a low-stakes friendly environment.

If you're seeing a therapist / psychiatrist you can ask for help with approaching people and making friends in a way that's safe & comfortable for both you and them.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Tsunade » Wed Jul 10, 2019 6:28 pm

The guys on here have been quite a lot of help for me, so hopefully theyll be a big help for you too. I've found this place to be a great place to speak about my mental health. I don't do well talking to anyone about my anxiety and depression, so it's good just to be able to type out how I'm feeling instead of talking about it.

Birmingham has really bad mental health services unless you want a course of CBT. So just talking about stuff here has helped because I know I can just let it out.

My nurse (that helps me with my leg) now thinks I may have PTSD from when I had sepsis. Whether my doctor will send me on for a proper diagnosis is another matter entirely.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Curls » Wed Jul 10, 2019 11:25 pm

I know some of you have far greater problems. I'm not depressed well I don't think so anyway but I'm getting tired. I really really struggle with who I am and what people think of me. I have no self appreciation and don't feel I'm good enough for people to like me as a friend never even mind romantically. I get clingy with people and constantly try not to offend anyone, I constantly put myself out to earn tiny snippets of appreciation only to gear myself up to be hurt when I'm later forgotten about or shunned down. I can't stand my own company and everytime I'm by myself I feel down.

I guess I crave appreciation but I don't have the confidence or character to just self appreciate. I have a lot of female friends but noone is ever romantically interested and I don't know how to change that, and I've even grown to the stage now where I just can't be bothered and see myself as just an onlooker.

But all in all my confidence and character has grown stronger over the years, so why at the age of 28 am I still having these issues. Im tired of being me, I'm tired of being liked by everyone but loved by noone, I'm tired of being the friend people can rely on but can also fob off when convenient. I'm tired of being not as interesting or as fun as all the confident and outgoing people around me. But yet, I know deep down that non of this is the case, so why the strawberry float can't I stop feeling like this on and off so much.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by H3AN3Y » Thu Jul 11, 2019 12:08 am

Thanks to all who replied hopefully I can share but also help others at the same time we all have our strengths and weaknesses and I hope this prissy trying to be positive despite how bad I actually am doesn’t take away from what I’m going through

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by H3AN3Y » Thu Jul 11, 2019 12:11 am

Curls wrote:I know some of you have far greater problems. I'm not depressed well I don't think so anyway but I'm getting tired. I really really struggle with who I am and what people think of me. I have no self appreciation and don't feel I'm good enough for people to like me as a friend never even mind romantically. I get clingy with people and constantly try not to offend anyone, I constantly put myself out to earn tiny snippets of appreciation only to gear myself up to be hurt when I'm later forgotten about or shunned down. I can't stand my own company and everytime I'm by myself I feel down.

I guess I crave appreciation but I don't have the confidence or character to just self appreciate. I have a lot of female friends but noone is ever romantically interested and I don't know how to change that, and I've even grown to the stage now where I just can't be bothered and see myself as just an onlooker.

But all in all my confidence and character has grown stronger over the years, so why at the age of 28 am I still having these issues. Im tired of being me, I'm tired of being liked by everyone but loved by noone, I'm tired of being the friend people can rely on but can also fob off when convenient. I'm tired of being not as interesting or as fun as all the confident and outgoing people around me. But yet, I know deep down that non of this is the case, so why the strawberry float can't I stop feeling like this on and off so much.


I feel the same way I see myself as just a statistic I don’t seek or want approval but I do get the lack of love, feeling overlooked for relationships and being able to start one never mind sustain one.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Drumstick » Thu Jul 11, 2019 12:42 am

Curls wrote:I know some of you have far greater problems. I'm not depressed well I don't think so anyway but I'm getting tired. I really really struggle with who I am and what people think of me. I have no self appreciation and don't feel I'm good enough for people to like me as a friend never even mind romantically. I get clingy with people and constantly try not to offend anyone, I constantly put myself out to earn tiny snippets of appreciation only to gear myself up to be hurt when I'm later forgotten about or shunned down. I can't stand my own company and everytime I'm by myself I feel down.

I guess I crave appreciation but I don't have the confidence or character to just self appreciate. I have a lot of female friends but noone is ever romantically interested and I don't know how to change that, and I've even grown to the stage now where I just can't be bothered and see myself as just an onlooker.

But all in all my confidence and character has grown stronger over the years, so why at the age of 28 am I still having these issues. Im tired of being me, I'm tired of being liked by everyone but loved by noone, I'm tired of being the friend people can rely on but can also fob off when convenient. I'm tired of being not as interesting or as fun as all the confident and outgoing people around me. But yet, I know deep down that non of this is the case, so why the strawberry float can't I stop feeling like this on and off so much.

The only thing in there that you need to focus on is learning self-love/care/appreciation. Once that's down the rest will happen naturally.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Sandy » Thu Jul 11, 2019 7:15 am

Curls wrote:I know some of you have far greater problems. I'm not depressed well I don't think so anyway but I'm getting tired. I really really struggle with who I am and what people think of me. I have no self appreciation and don't feel I'm good enough for people to like me as a friend never even mind romantically. I get clingy with people and constantly try not to offend anyone, I constantly put myself out to earn tiny snippets of appreciation only to gear myself up to be hurt when I'm later forgotten about or shunned down. I can't stand my own company and everytime I'm by myself I feel down.

I guess I crave appreciation but I don't have the confidence or character to just self appreciate. I have a lot of female friends but noone is ever romantically interested and I don't know how to change that, and I've even grown to the stage now where I just can't be bothered and see myself as just an onlooker.

But all in all my confidence and character has grown stronger over the years, so why at the age of 28 am I still having these issues. Im tired of being me, I'm tired of being liked by everyone but loved by noone, I'm tired of being the friend people can rely on but can also fob off when convenient. I'm tired of being not as interesting or as fun as all the confident and outgoing people around me. But yet, I know deep down that non of this is the case, so why the strawberry float can't I stop feeling like this on and off so much.


Have you tried asking any of your lady friends out on a date?

It also sounds like you should refer yourself to your local adult mental health service or see your GP for them to refer you. Most places do self referral if you don't want to see you GP.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Curls » Thu Jul 11, 2019 5:39 pm

I was down last night. It was started by two close female friends abandoning me and purposely not telling me their plans just because I’m male, and they’ve done it before. I need to start appreciating myself more that is correct, and also stop running around for them so much, they don’t give a gooseberry fool about me and I’m pretty great actually. I just wish I wasn’t so effected by the environment and people around me and could just focus on my own self love a bit more( no not wanking).

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Drumstick » Thu Jul 11, 2019 6:01 pm

Sounds like you should do yourself a favour and hang around with them less.

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by Rocsteady » Mon Jul 15, 2019 8:09 pm

I’m back to desperately trying to stave off suicidal thoughts. Come at a good time with some important client meetings over the next few days, I’ve not felt right in a good while now though.

I’m really struggling with finding what I want from life. I’ve got a bit of an open relationship at the moment, and had a threesome with two lasses from uni at the weekend who had just randomly dropped me a text. It was a laugh at the time but I feel even worse since and don’t know why. If I was a teenager again I’d think I have everything I ever wanted and yet I’m no happier now than the majority of my adult life.

Feel like I can’t escape the crushing feeling of life no matter what I do which is making it hard for me to keep trying to better myself by aiming towards something. Feel like my mind is just in a haze, in a thick cloud I can’t escape from. I don’t know what to do to get away from it.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Rocsteady » Mon Jul 22, 2019 8:27 pm

Has anyone called Samaritans before? I feel like I’m reaching breaking point, the last few days I keep crying and am actively having to stop me chucking myself off the balcony. Thankfully my new flat's only two floors up so I probably won’t do it as I’d just shatter my legs.

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by poshrule_uk » Mon Jul 22, 2019 8:39 pm

Curls wrote:I was down last night. It was started by two close female friends abandoning me and purposely not telling me their plans just because I’m male, and they’ve done it before. I need to start appreciating myself more that is correct, and also stop running around for them so much, they don’t give a gooseberry fool about me and I’m pretty great actually. I just wish I wasn’t so effected by the environment and people around me and could just focus on my own self love a bit more( no not wanking).


I was down all weekend because a colleague at work said they hope I die on the way home on Friday just gone in response to a joke we were having. I have replayed this over in my head and the response was not justified.

It really shook me and knocked the wind out of me and I'm not really sure how to deal with this, he knows I'm not happy about it but after that I rather have nothing to do with him but it's a bit difficult when they are on your team.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by PaperMacheMario » Mon Jul 22, 2019 8:45 pm

Rocsteady wrote:Has anyone called Samaritans before? I feel like I’m reaching breaking point, the last few days I keep crying and am actively having to stop me chucking myself off the balcony. Thankfully my new flat's only two floors up so I probably won’t do it as I’d just shatter my legs.

I’ve not but I would urge you to do so if that’s how you’re feeling right now mate. If anything they can point you in the right direction in receiving help and support.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Outrunner » Mon Jul 22, 2019 8:51 pm

Rocsteady wrote:Has anyone called Samaritans before? I feel like I’m reaching breaking point, the last few days I keep crying and am actively having to stop me chucking myself off the balcony. Thankfully my new flat's only two floors up so I probably won’t do it as I’d just shatter my legs.


Yes, several times, mostly when I've been suicidal but also when I've "just" been really low and felt I didn't want to burden anyone. All but one of the people I spoke to was great (and the one that wasn't great wasn't awful). They'll stay on the line as long as you need and even offered me a callback the following day (a different person but still it was nice that someone touched base with me). I'd definitely do it, it was a life line for me while I was waiting for other things to be put in places.

I will say the first call was a little...awkward I guess. I didn't know what to expect or what to say but the woman on the phone was great. It might also be worth checking your local Samaritans (if you have one). The one in my town had a drop in centre (I'm not sure if they still do).

I can honestly say they are one of reasons I am still alive today.

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PostRe: Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions
by Rocsteady » Mon Jul 22, 2019 9:59 pm

Thanks guys. I’m over in Belgium for now so won’t have a local one but if I’m feeling the same tomorrow I’ll try give them a call.

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