Depression, Anxiety, or other Mental Health Conditions

Decided to call the doctors this morning and have a phone appointment this afternoon to discuss the ongoing feelings of anxiety I'm having.

Hopefully it's a step back towards 'normality'

Zilnad wrote:Tough day today. Had a pretty substantial bathroom leak over night which we'll hopefully get sorted through our home insurance. No idea how bad the damage is yet.

I appreciate this is a weird area to pick out, but do you know where the leak was coming from? I might be able to help you with some advice.

Samuel_1 wrote:

Zilnad wrote:Tough day today. Had a pretty substantial bathroom leak over night which we'll hopefully get sorted through our home insurance. No idea how bad the damage is yet.

I appreciate this is a weird area to pick out, but do you know where the leak was coming from? I might be able to help you with some advice.

Yes, thanks. The leak itself is sorted now and home insurance are giving us a bit of pay out to get repair the damage.

Zilnad wrote:

Samuel_1 wrote:

Zilnad wrote:Tough day today. Had a pretty substantial bathroom leak over night which we'll hopefully get sorted through our home insurance. No idea how bad the damage is yet.

I appreciate this is a weird area to pick out, but do you know where the leak was coming from? I might be able to help you with some advice.

Yes, thanks. The leak itself is sorted now and home insurance are giving us a bit of pay out to get repair the damage.

Ah OK, that's good.

Really not been doing well today.

Have broken down crying more than once, I'm struggling to eat and I just have a constant sense of anxiety and fear, that I think is being driven by an absolute terror of my own mortality. I just can't get that line of thinking out of my mind and it utterly terrifies me that one day I'm going to die and just....stop being.

I've got a telephone assessment with a mental health place tomorrow morning but right now it seems impossible to see how just talking therapy will help.

Scaringly low tonight. First time in about 6 years I've felt this way. Break up is kicking my head in and I'm struggling to see mysel get out of it. Hopefully get some sleep and feel better when I wake up.

blackoutHERO wrote:Scaringly low tonight. First time in about 6 years I've felt this way. Break up is kicking my head in and I'm struggling to see mysel get out of it. Hopefully get some sleep and feel better when I wake up.

Could be flaring up bad cos of work stress?

I have been having big big flare ups of anger since my daughter got her A level results back... she was predicted an A and 2 B's they've given her 3 C's which she is now appealing.. 3 C's is a good grade I am not saying its not I would have happily taken it as my grades but shes put in like a million percent in lessons and in college in general, she was her college student president as well as a key part of the LGTB society, they took her to London to an educational conference to meet experts in education for her opinion on how to make it better for students, shes done everything she can and it just angers me so much that this is what she gets out of it..... I have always tried to teach her to do her hardest and be involved and this feels so unfair and like it makes a mockery of that...

Im angry and just want to smash stuff and go crazy but lots of other people keep turning to me and asking me for help and for stuff.

I've had a tough day today. I basically told another friend who I unrequited love and care about not to contact me as I can't control my feelings.
I don't want to remain a friend in love with someone for months and years to come, not again.
I don't want to analyse every text and worry about if she likes me or if I'm offending her.
It's a long story but she basically ended up locked down with me (and several others, military camp) and she broke up with her emotionally abusive boyfriend at the time. We hung out all the time and I fell for her hard, I guess I was a temprary crutch. I spent weeks trying to tell her my feelings, but then her she agreed to go sailing with her ex-boyfriend and it all got strawberry floating complicated. On her last day I ended up spewing out everything and departure was awkard. Skip forward three weeks and shes just back from her holiday and texting me to catch up.

I asked her if she fixed things with the ex, all i got was 'things are going ok.' I then decided that this is all rediculous and told her firmly and extremely nicely that I can't talk to her right now whilst my feelings were so volatile, and that I'd reassess in a few months. It's all I can do. Now, I'm in bits, again, different girl, same old situation.

Curls wrote:I've had a tough day today. I basically told another friend who I unrequited love and care about not to contact me as I can't control my feelings.
I don't want to remain a friend in love with someone for months and years to come, not again.
I don't want to analyse every text and worry about if she likes me or if I'm offending her.
It's a long story but she basically ended up locked down with me (and several others, military camp) and she broke up with her emotionally abusive boyfriend at the time. We hung out all the time and I fell for her hard, I guess I was a temprary crutch. I spent weeks trying to tell her my feelings, but then her she agreed to go sailing with her ex-boyfriend and it all got strawberry floating complicated. On her last day I ended up spewing out everything and departure was awkard. Skip forward three weeks and shes just back from her holiday and texting me to catch up.

I asked her if she fixed things with the ex, all i got was 'things are going ok.' I then decided that this is all rediculous and told her firmly and extremely nicely that I can't talk to her right now whilst my feelings were so volatile, and that I'd reassess in a few months. It's all I can do. Now, I'm in bits, again, different girl, same old situation.

Very tough break chap. If it helps I think you have done the right thing.

kerr9000 wrote:I have been having big big flare ups of anger since my daughter got her A level results back... she was predicted an A and 2 B's they've given her 3 C's which she is now appealing.. 3 C's is a good grade I am not saying its not I would have happily taken it as my grades but shes put in like a million percent in lessons and in college in general, she was her college student president as well as a key part of the LGTB society, they took her to London to an educational conference to meet experts in education for her opinion on how to make it better for students, shes done everything she can and it just angers me so much that this is what she gets out of it..... I have always tried to teach her to do her hardest and be involved and this feels so unfair and like it makes a mockery of that...

Im angry and just want to smash stuff and go crazy but lots of other people keep turning to me and asking me for help and for stuff.

ABB -> CCC is outrageous. It's not that CCC is bad (and it sounds like you'd be proud of her whatever grades she got which is lovely!), but with predicted grades of ABB she definitely wouldn't have got CCC.

I hope her appeal is successful.

Karl_ wrote:

kerr9000 wrote:I have been having big big flare ups of anger since my daughter got her A level results back... she was predicted an A and 2 B's they've given her 3 C's which she is now appealing.. 3 C's is a good grade I am not saying its not I would have happily taken it as my grades but shes put in like a million percent in lessons and in college in general, she was her college student president as well as a key part of the LGTB society, they took her to London to an educational conference to meet experts in education for her opinion on how to make it better for students, shes done everything she can and it just angers me so much that this is what she gets out of it..... I have always tried to teach her to do her hardest and be involved and this feels so unfair and like it makes a mockery of that...

Im angry and just want to smash stuff and go crazy but lots of other people keep turning to me and asking me for help and for stuff.

ABB -> CCC is outrageous. It's not that CCC is bad (and it sounds like you'd be proud of her whatever grades she got which is lovely!), but with predicted grades of ABB she definitely wouldn't have got CCC.

I hope her appeal is successful.

Thank you very much. Yep I am very proud of her and if she ends up with CCC then she does its just annoying that I think she and lets be honest a lot of the young people out there in similar situations deserve a lot better.

kerr9000 wrote:

Curls wrote:I've had a tough day today. I basically told another friend who I unrequited love and care about not to contact me as I can't control my feelings.
I don't want to remain a friend in love with someone for months and years to come, not again.
I don't want to analyse every text and worry about if she likes me or if I'm offending her.
It's a long story but she basically ended up locked down with me (and several others, military camp) and she broke up with her emotionally abusive boyfriend at the time. We hung out all the time and I fell for her hard, I guess I was a temprary crutch. I spent weeks trying to tell her my feelings, but then her she agreed to go sailing with her ex-boyfriend and it all got strawberry floating complicated. On her last day I ended up spewing out everything and departure was awkard. Skip forward three weeks and shes just back from her holiday and texting me to catch up.

I asked her if she fixed things with the ex, all i got was 'things are going ok.' I then decided that this is all rediculous and told her firmly and extremely nicely that I can't talk to her right now whilst my feelings were so volatile, and that I'd reassess in a few months. It's all I can do. Now, I'm in bits, again, different girl, same old situation.

Very tough break chap. If it helps I think you have done the right thing.

It’s maybe what I was fishing for posting in here, thanks for your reply. I feel better today, and when I feel better I feel like maybe I can improve things and maybe I should just message, but I’m learning that you have to be able to cope with the lows that come with the highs in any friendship or relationship. If she makes me horrifically depressed when I’m low, and the high is just me feeling good because we’re getting along a bit better. Then that’s not a high.

In other news I’m listening to the audiobook ‘ the courage to be disliked’ it’s about Adlerian psychology. It’s quite interesting, anyone else read about it?

Curls wrote:In other news I’m listening to the audiobook ‘ the courage to be disliked’ it’s about Adlerian psychology. It’s quite interesting, anyone else read about it?

I haven't read it, but from a quick google and remembering the stuff you posted about RE: certain friendships before, it sounds like it might be useful/helpful. Defining your own happiness and even validity purely from making others happy is deeply unhealthy and can lead to unscrupulous/unpleasant people taking advantage of that. The tl;dr seems to be 'strawberry float the haters, you do you', which makes a lot of sense; there is no point wasting effort on any kind of relationship which is all one-way.

I think the big depression is coming for me. House buying is incredibly stressful and putting strain on my relationship. I rarely get alone time as my house is tiny and he works from home and with lockdown we've not really had anywhere to go.

I'm trying to keep my routine, not skipping showers and washing my hair, cooking proper meals and trying to snack healthy and not just survive off fatty coke and cigarettes. I've been exercising and really feel good once I'm on my bike or off for a walk with just my headphones or chatting gooseberry fool with a pal. Its good but I think it's just holding the tide.

On another note I keep feeling like I'm ready to burst into tears which might be related, but I've not had my usual check ups for my brain tumour cuz of covid so I'm hoping that's hormonal fudgery, though treatment for that isn't really pleasant either so I guess I still lose.

I'm really struggling with stress just now too. Trying to navigate staying in Poland post-Brexit with a very uncertain job situation due to COVID is not helping my mental health.

It's been a bad time for me these past two weeks.
There has been probably only one day where I haven't broken down in tears at least once, and it's been almost impossible to shift a feeling of anxiety and being scared. About 2 weeks ago I just seemed to get struck with the terrifying reality of my own mortality and it hasn't really gone away.
It culminated in basically having a panic attack last night where the terror just got overwhelming and never really went away.

My GP referred to a mental health place, which I have an assessment with tomorrow to hopefully get therapy/help with the causes, but after last night I called the doctor back this morning and they’ve prescribed me a mild anti-depressant (an SSRI, I don't know which) to take once a day for the next 4 weeks.

Just a few weeks ago I felt so normal and happy, and now I can't stop thinking about my own mortality and how much it scares me, which just feeds the panic and anxiety which just makes me think on it more.
It's so hard to see a way to get back to normal, to feeling how I felt before.

So I've been prescribed Sertraline for the next 4 weeks, I'm really hoping it will help me because today honestly feels like the worst day of my entire life.
I'm due to start taking 50mg per day every morning from tomorrow. They recommended not taking it today as I've been taking St John's Wort for the last week and had one this morning, so they said to wait until tomorrow to start on the Sertraline and to completely stop taking the St John's Wort.

Just yesterday I felt not too bad most of the day until a panic attack last night at about 7ish and it just doesn't feel like it's really subsided.

I'm really sorry to hear you've been feeling so bad over the last fortnight, Laga. I know how scary and upsetting panic attacks can be. You 100% did the right thing by getting in touch with your GP. I hope that the combination of some medicine and talking it through with a mental health specialist helps you.

Sertraline is a good medicine to try for mixed anxiety/depression. It's likely to take a couple of weeks for you to notice the difference, just to give you a heads up.

Yeah, I'm sure your doctor explained, but basically St. John's Wort is itself a mild antidepressant (although it doesn't work as well as prescribed ones) and it wouldn't be good to take two at the same time.

Just so you know, if you continue to have panic attacks, particularly if they happen more frequently, you can ask your doctor about fast-acting medications that you can take to calm yourself down when one is happening.

Hope you feel better soon Laga. You're a cool dude and you're going to make it. xxx