Tsunade wrote:You aren't strawberry floating up min, you're trying to improve, that's a brilliant thing! You aren't a failure, that's the depression talking. You're awesome, and you need to remember that.
The instructor sounds like a prick, remember you're paying him, not the other way around. If he's being a bastard get rid of him and try someone else who may be more understanding.
And vent away, we don't mind one bit.
Thanks. You’re right, I think part of it’s the depression, which is why it hits so hard and I struggle to just shrug it off. It’s kind of hard to fight those feelings of failure when they have actual basis in fact and the depression and anxiety just make it worse. I've just been struggling with it a lot lately, and trying to get in a place where I can do things to help is really hard, so for this to go so badly was not really what I needed.
Karl wrote:That driving instructor is a tosser Minoru. You're doing the responsible thing by brushing up on your driving with a teacher for a while rather than trying to wing it -- someone who berates you for that doesn't deserve your money. You should get a different instructor IMO.
Yeah, that's what felt quite weird about it, like I am paying for this, when legally I don't actually need to, I'm obviously aware there is a problem and trying to correct it and he wasn't interested in giving me any credit for that, just kept making me feel bad that there was a problem at all.
Drumstick wrote:Change instructor immediately.
1) His attitude will not help you focus on driving, it'll divert your attention to his behaviour and you could end up being stuck in this cycle for much longer than necessary, leaving you out of pocket and probably quite miserable.
2) Who wants to give money to pricks?
You're right. I got stressed and instead of calming down as the lesson went on, I got worse - he even commented on it, and I'm like, gee, I wonder why. I definitely did not feel like paying him.
I will change instructor when I can get the nerve to try again. I might see if the guy who originally taught me is still around, he was nice. I’ll probably feel pretty crap going back and being like ‘yeah, I can’t remember how to drive’, but at least he should be more understanding.