Hey guess what I'm a massive alcoholic

Tomous wrote:No problem. It surprised me how god-bothery AA is, which completely put me off to be honest! And hence why I went with SMART instead.

Isn't one of the "12 steps" to admit that there's a higher power? Such a sneaky bit of proselytising.

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Preezy wrote:
Tomous wrote:No problem. It surprised me how god-bothery AA is, which completely put me off to be honest! And hence why I went with SMART instead.

Isn't one of the "12 steps" to admit that there's a higher power? Such a sneaky bit of proselytising.

Yeah....it's not exactly just a sneaky bit :lol:

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Edit: opps

Well done on admitting it to yourself and others, that in itself is a huge step, so we'll done.

My dad was an alcoholic, he had it well enough for a while but we all noticed it eventually as he got worse, and when confronted about it he went in to a wild rage (so you being able to admit it is amazing in itself to me). Eventually he had total liver failure, but in 2 years leading up to that he had alcohol induced dementia, plus fluids leaking in to his stomach lining which he nede to have a permanent pump fitted to his stomach insides to drain it every day through a tube. By the end he was unrecognisable in both appearance and personality, and died alone in a hospice of sorts. Having alienated everyone through his drinking and personality, his funeral was attended by (outside of immediate family) two people.

Get that gooseberry fool out of your life, well done for starting.

Tomous wrote:
Preezy wrote:
Tomous wrote:No problem. It surprised me how god-bothery AA is, which completely put me off to be honest! And hence why I went with SMART instead.

Isn't one of the "12 steps" to admit that there's a higher power? Such a sneaky bit of proselytising.

Yeah....it's not exactly just a sneaky bit

Crikey

As many others have said, well done on taking the first step. It's not going to be easy but it's definitely going to be worth it.

Preezy wrote:
Tomous wrote:
Preezy wrote:
Tomous wrote:No problem. It surprised me how god-bothery AA is, which completely put me off to be honest! And hence why I went with SMART instead.

Isn't one of the "12 steps" to admit that there's a higher power? Such a sneaky bit of proselytising.

Yeah....it's not exactly just a sneaky bit

Crikey

Yea I saw that. The breakdown on the site of the particular group I'm going to tomorrow is that 'we aren't a religious organisation and members come from all faiths, including no faith at all. When we talk about higher powers, we mean that you recognise that you are part of something bigger than yourself'.

:dread:

If I come back with a WWJD bracelet, just know it's because God is love and I want to save you all from hell's eternal fire.

Victor Mildew wrote:Well done on admitting it to yourself and others, that in itself is a huge step, so we'll done.

My dad was an alcoholic, he had it well enough for a while but we all noticed it eventually as he got worse, and when confronted about it he went in to a wild rage (so you being able to admit it is amazing in itself to me). Eventually he had total liver failure, but in 2 years leading up to that he had alcohol induced dementia, plus fluids leaking in to his stomach lining which he nede to have a permanent pump fitted to his stomach insides to drain it every day through a tube. By the end he was unrecognisable in both appearance and personality, and died alone in a hospice of sorts. Having alienated everyone through his drinking and personality, his funeral was attended by (outside of immediate family) two people.

Get that gooseberry fool out of your life, well done for starting.

Thanks man. I guess the biggest part is not recognising myself drunk anymore. The sheer amount I was putting back should have been a warning but the things I said and did whilst drunk (and having no memory of it whatsoever) has gotten untenable.

I feel like I spend half my time sober apologising for things I don't remember saying or doing and the rest of the time looking forward to getting drunk again so I don't have to deal with the stress of all the things I did whilst drunk.

It's vicious.

Strength and courage to you Skarjo. Lots of love xx

Skarjo wrote:Today I poured about 200 quids worth of booze down the sink and I'm going to my first Alcoholics Anonymous meeting tomorrow.

I genuinely don't know how some you lot do it. Like, just go for one or two drinks and then stop. I'm a very social guy who would never say it out loud but I see people in bars who just, like, won't finish their drink? They've decided they've had enough and so will just stand up and leave dinner with half a glass of wine on the table and outwardly I'm like 'Good to see you, lets do it again soon' but inwardly I'm like 'that is half a glass of wine right there what the strawberry float are you doing?'.

I've got rules and I've got strategies. I don't drink before or during work, and I have a nice cycle of shops and delivery services that I use in rotation so that no one sees me *too* regularly. I make sure to get the whiskies that come in boxes so that they can be refilled on the sly without seeing the epileptic fit that the liquid level is doing. I'm at the point now where I'm putting away usually about a bottle of whisky a day, and have done for about two years now.

strawberry floating done with it.

Well done mate, and good luck. Nothing to be ashamed of. I bet there are lots of people on this forum battling their own addictions.

I have my own battle to fight, and have definitly got worse since Lockdown and WFH. Like you I have rules, but There is a disturbing pattern that I need to break.

I found this cartoon a really good representation of what it's all about.

Keep us updated, and remember if you do fall, then all that really matters is you get up again afterwards.

YouTube

by the sounds of things, sobriety should make your wallet grow. i come from a long line of alcoholics, and I agree with everyone here who says "stop now while you can". drinking to excess solves nothing.

Good luck with your recovery, and a huge well done for recognising you have a problem before you hit rock bottom.

Good luck Skarjo - you've got this :wub:

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Good on you for wanting to improve your situation, Skarjo!

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Change can only be made if the person wants to make it so bravo for taking that step, man.

Drumstick wrote:I thought this was going to be some meme thread when I opened it!

Same, came in with very wrong expectations.

Well done on taking this first step, skarjo. Wishing you all the best as you go through this transition.

Good on you for wanting to sort it out and like lots of people have said admiting it is the best start possible, I wish you all the luck in the world.

I have a friend who is alcoholic but most of his friends and family make excuses for him and he won't admit it, I saw his 12 year old daughter try to tell him he had a problem and it broke my heart that he wouldnt even listen to her , I wish he would face it like you are , nothing but respect for you chap.

Albear wrote:
Skarjo wrote:Today I poured about 200 quids worth of booze down the sink and I'm going to my first Alcoholics Anonymous meeting tomorrow.

I genuinely don't know how some you lot do it. Like, just go for one or two drinks and then stop. I'm a very social guy who would never say it out loud but I see people in bars who just, like, won't finish their drink? They've decided they've had enough and so will just stand up and leave dinner with half a glass of wine on the table and outwardly I'm like 'Good to see you, lets do it again soon' but inwardly I'm like 'that is half a glass of wine right there what the strawberry float are you doing?'.

I've got rules and I've got strategies. I don't drink before or during work, and I have a nice cycle of shops and delivery services that I use in rotation so that no one sees me *too* regularly. I make sure to get the whiskies that come in boxes so that they can be refilled on the sly without seeing the epileptic fit that the liquid level is doing. I'm at the point now where I'm putting away usually about a bottle of whisky a day, and have done for about two years now.

strawberry floating done with it.

Well done mate, and good luck. Nothing to be ashamed of. I bet there are lots of people on this forum battling their own addictions.

I have my own battle to fight, and have definitly got worse since Lockdown and WFH. Like you I have rules, but There is a disturbing pattern that I need to break.

I found this cartoon a really good representation of what it's all about.

Keep us updated, and remember if you do fall, then all that really matters is you get up again afterwards.

Wow, that cartoon was moving.

I've been there. It's awful and can be so tough to get out of, but you can do it. Best of luck.

Good luck Skarjo and all the best. A guy who used to be one of my best mates has had a blossoming alcohol problem for quite a while now, he’s a shadow of the person he used to be. Scary, really.

Skarjo we may have never interacted directly at all even though we've been part of the same community for god knows how many years at this point but amazing work at being able to admit you have a problem and good on you for taking the first steps into being able to beat it. I've never suffered addiction or been close to anyone who's gone through the steps you're about to take but I wish you the best of luck on your path forward. Just know we're all here if you ever need someone to vent to again :wub:

Well done Skarjo.
Hopefully, you can start feeling more normal now without drink and use the spare cash to do things you'll really enjoy.
We're all here for you.

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