Qikz wrote:The two endings to evangelion, the more I think im coming close to understand what the point of the entire series was the further away I get from actually understanding anything at all.
I assume the TV series is where instrumentality is achieved and even Shinji manages to accept himself ready to be reborn and the End is where instrumentality is achieved but as Shinji cannot accept himself as a person he leaves before rebirth to die alone with Asuka who I assume also can't do it either (or was protected by EVA02 so couldn't enter to begin with).
I think your interpretation of the last segment of EoE, One More Final: I need you, is incorrect. They are indeed the same ending, or at least different variations on the same idea. Shinji doesn't go off to die with Asuka, he goes off to live with Asuka because he's come to accept himself internally and in the context of other people.
Instrumentality is achieved in both but people like Asuka and Shinji who value their individuality reject it and so their souls do not enter the Gates of Guf to join the rest of humanity. Either way, Shinji accepts himself. Shinji and Asuka are paired off here because they both need each other to understand themselves, each being able to see themselves in the other person all without instrumentality.