I thought i'd try War Thunder and World of Tanks. I like tanks, what can possibly go wrong? Turns out a lot. I spent a couple of evenings either seeing no enemies but spontaneously exploding as they obliterate me from a nearby hedge/hilltop, or my shots bounce off their hulls while they kill me in one shot, even in the bottom tiers where everyone starts with rollerskates with a gun on top. Seeing the monumentous grind needed to get anywhere realised it would take far longer than I was prepared to spend for an outcome I didn't really care about.
I felt the same sense of sadness, anger, ennui and misery at the futility of it all, my own incompetence and what a complete waste of time it had been, conjuring up memories of similar experiences of the multiplayer games I played in the past like Counterstrike and TF2, as well as more modern games like Overwatch, where any momentary or fluke successes were greatly outweighed by getting bodied over and over again and the nagging feeling that all I was doing was acting as a moving target for others to have fun through, instead of actually enjoying the experience, and only getting pissed off and more and more miserable in return. I do not want to spend my leisure time feeling like that again, so I quit and uninstalled them. This rant probably belongs in the depression thread but whatever.
