That's not a growth wrote:Thanks. With the wage it's a difficult balance of it being a role created especially for me in a growing department, no direct comparison between roles in other departments, and the fact the company pays pretty appallingly overall in general. But it's a high margin department, and I know what a few managers are on, and I can compare to somewhat similar roles I've seen advertised online, and I've been at this for a while now.
I'm just trying to figure out how I would deal with it if they don't work on
a. Our systems
b. the staff levels
c. my wage
Because I just wouldn't want to work under those conditions.
Logically, none of these requests are unreasonable from what I can see, but I just get the feeling they'll make it as difficult as possible just because that's the way they do things, like they assume because you're asking for something then they can't give you everything out of principle. But I'm getting ahead of myself, I'm just nervous, it still needs to be discussed fully
This isn't going well, and I'm very, very stressed. And it's only about 'a' and 'b' now, I've not even got to 'c' with them yet because at the moment there's no point staying if those two aren't fixed, no matter how much they pay me.
The request for more staff was brought up during an exec meeting, and the MD thinks it's a load of gooseberry fool (to paraphrase), so was to send my manager's manager to join us for a few hours to see if my calculations on how long tasks take are fair or if we're really inefficient (note, I got these calculations by timing a member of staff over quite a few days and getting averages, which I've explained to them previously). He was meant to do this yesterday but didn't for reasons unknown. When my manager mentioned this a few days ago to me I pointed out that I agree; we are really inefficient, but because we need a new system (which is why I created a 7 page document pointing out where our systems are failing). Issue being the MD stopped our conversations with IT regarding that because... reasons. I'm not sure. He can be very impulsive and against anything that involves spending money. The company philosophy is basically get a problem, if you can't solve it with what you've got just do some over time until it's done. Issue being we've got a customer really wanting to give us a massive contract with a short turn around, and while there are questions about getting the proper paperwork and payment plans we still need to plan for this eventuality, and it's pretty much a done deal. My manager said I should look into new systems and tools myself, and that involving IT perhaps isn't the best use of their time. This is a contract potentially worth a few million to the company, and they're arguing against getting 3 people on around minimum wage to do admin work and getting some sort of database instead of Excel to do project and asset management.
I've been applying for jobs, but I'm concerned what to do if they try to put me in an impossible situation if I can't find something. It is absolutely impossible to complete the customers request using the current amount of people we have, and will be very, very difficult using the tools we have even if we do get more people.
They will tell me to just "give it a go and see what happens, and if you struggle we'll see about adding more people" but I KNOW from previous experience we will need more people, doing over time won't be enough (I don't even want to do over time, let alone 55+ hour weeks for 4+ months) and it takes time to train people and be prepared. And my day is already full, let alone trying to plan for a department expansion.
I'm considering I will have to walk and live off my savings for a while, and I'll get a load of gooseberry fool for leaving them at an important time. But it feels monumentally stupid agreeing to put myself in a situation that is impossible and they're not going to do anything to
Does a panic attract feel similar to a headache mixed with the feeling like you're going to faint and dizziness? I had that a lot yesterday. I strawberry floating hate this.