Return_of_the_STAR wrote:I'm not very happy at the moment, feel like I'm wasting my life. I have a child and wife who I love dearly but I feel like I can't provide better for them. I want more children but we don't seem to be able to have anymore, specialists don't know why. All my siblings are doing better than me, my close mates too, although I hardly see them as I've pretty much successfully cut myself off from them. To top it all off I found a dead body in the river the other day at work. It took over a day for anyone to ask if I was alright about it. It didn't bother me until an inspector actually asked me that question, naturally I said I was fine because I genuinely thought I was. I probably shouldn't be posting this in here as this seems more like a happy thread. I grew up with a lot of money thinking that life would be easy and I would just work for my dad then a few of his businesses went tits up just when I was leaving school, my older brother still works for my dad which makes me jealous. My dads doing better now but it doesn't really benefit me a lot. I think the future will be a lot better financially but selfishly I won't the benefits now. My sister is doing really well for herself which although I'm proud of her makes me jealous as we had the same opportunities but she had aspirations and went for it.
That was a bit of a ramble. I've just tried to delete this a few times but I'm going to make myself post it. Don't worry this isn't some rambling suicide note, that's never crossed my mind. Feel a bit better for writing all this though.
Wasn't intended to just be a happy thread at all, far more interesting with posts such as these too.
If you don't mind me asking, why does it bother you that you're not as financially well off as you could be? Do you actually need the extra money or would it just be a nice addition?
I'm at a stage where my salary could be going up roughly 6x from what it is now in the next couple of months but will require a complete upheaval that will probably make me far more miserable than I am just now and I do sometimes wonder if it'll be worth it. Although I'm properly on the poverty line now, I do still manage to get by so it does sometimes tempt me to just remain poor.
Probably much different with a kid and that like.